Against Darkness: Vaishnavas fight black magic

X das, 2015-2023

“I saw Watchers in my vision, the dream-vision. Two men were fighting over me... holding a great contest over me. I asked them, ‘Who are you, that you are thus empowered over me?’ They answered, ‘We have been empowered and rule over all mankind.’ They said to me, ‘Which of us do you choose to rule you?’ I raised my eyes and looked. One of them was terrifying in his appearance, like a serpent, his cloak, many-colored yet very dark... And I looked again, and in his appearance, his visage like a viper... I replied to him, ‘This Watcher, who is he?’ He answered, ‘This Watcher... his three names are Belial and Prince of Darkness and King of Evil.’ I said (to the other Watcher), ‘My lord, what dominion (have you?)’ He answered, ‘You saw (the viper), and he is empowered over all Darkness, while I (am empowered over all Light)... My three names are Michael, Prince of Light and King of Righteousness.’”
Vision (Testament) of Amram, Dead Sea Scrolls, translation by prof. Eisenmann
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amram#In_rabbinical_and_apocryphal_literature

Contents:

Introduction
Meeting ‘a woman from hell’
The chance for spiritual life
Almost meeting the guru
Living with a witch
The first darshan
Symptoms of possession
The period before their initiation
Our wedding and the sisters' initiation
Waking up to the reality
The inevitable split
Cursed by the guru
The first help
The spell cast online
My travels
Even darker side of my ex-wife
End of my travels
Exorcists
More symptoms and experiences
Our Deities
Further symptoms
Mahakarunika citta dharani: the first contacts
Recent experiences and countermeasures
Mahakarunika helps
The battle continues (series of updates)
Sending the black magic back
Updates after another year
Rudraksha and parad: personal protection
Problem 95% solved
Attacks in Vrindavan and our friend’s case
Nrsimhadev is behind everything

Introduction

The conflict between the powers of Light and Darkness is going on since time immemorial and is recognized by all spiritual traditions. Modern Western culture does not largely recognize it, apart from the entertainment domain, but it is still affected by it and the influence is increasing. None of us can stay aside. It also paradoxically proves the existence of spirituality. If there are enemies of the Lord, then the Lord is a fact beyond any doubt. Attacking a nonexistent enemy would be delusional.
This almost fantastic-sounding first-hand account comes from a person I have known for years. It is the story of himself, his wife, and several other devotees affected by black magic of an immense volume and severity continuing for several years. Other sources confirm that all these things can and do happen, yet rarely to this extent. The entities – whose modus operandi and effective countermeasures against them it reveals – tried to prevent its publication and this itself can be considered an indirect certificate of its impact to their dark agenda.
He has originally narrated his story during December 2021 as several audio recordings since we now live a half-world apart and writing would take him much time. I tried to put events in chronological order and to remove redundancies. Names and places are anonymized at some of the involved persons’ request. The important are the symptoms and solutions, which can help others in similar situations. This is the main purpose of this article. It consists of his words and my occasional notes in a smaller font.

-The transcriber

Meeting ‘a woman from hell’

I met my ex-wife on Facebook. She was good looking, with an innocent face, and claimed to be from a Vaishnava family. Due to my experiences from ISKCON, I thought it would be good to have a relationship with someone like her, a second generation devotee. She had two sisters and gave the impression their parents were disciples of the founder of ISKCON, Srila Prabhupada.

Here is a first warning sign coming from Vedic texts. Manu Samhita (9.81) states: A barren wife may be superseded in the eighth year, she whose children (all) die in the tenth, she who bears only daughters in the eleventh, but she who is quarrelsome without delay.

Both the mother and the father seemed to have spiritual names and she told me her father personally met Srila Prabhupada in 1972. When I checked the disciple database, I found there was really a devotee of such name initiated by Srila Prabhupada in the year and country she mentioned. But as I was about to see later, it was just a weird coincidence.
When we began to talk and have video calls through Skype, I felt a strange energy about her, although not all the time. Without any experience with black magic (b. m.) one could not understand what was going on. And I was also already enamored and enchanted.
I sort of miraculously learned her language only through texting on Facebook. I kept translating it in Google and somehow, maybe with some magical help from her side, in extremely short time I started to speak fluently. It is not normal to learn languages that fast. Maybe it was also something from my previous life. But nowadays, after few years of not using it, I can hardly put a sentence together or remember a basic word.
From time to time, she used to have a sort of outburst. At that time, I should had become cautious. But I am pretty sure that she had already cast a spell on me to bind me to herself.
Then she started making scenes, as women sometimes do, but hers were of a different category. Their energy was pure evil. So far everything was going on just online at that time as in long distance relationship, but I felt extremely and unnaturally hurt by her quick-tempered behavior.
She told me how everyone behaved badly to her, and that they suffered some terrible fate she could not tell me any details about. She also said how she was separated from her mother and sisters as a small child and lived with her father in another country for a few years, how she was later locked in an orphanage with young gangsters and junkies for six years until about seventeen, how she was physically abused and mentally tortured there, molested by teachers at her school and all kinds of scary events from her childhood, like about local people repeatedly brutally physically attacking her father in front of her eyes or throwing stones at them. She claimed it was because they were devotees. I would say because they were witches, as used to be the custom. Such people are hypocrites, trying not to reveal what they are and if there is any hint that one could find out, they will launch an attack to divert the attention. From all the things she told me I cannot say what was true, because she habitually lied so I do not know the full picture from their side.
I thought that she was just psychologically unstable, neurotic, as was seen from her constant biting her lips or insecure side glances. She always somehow explained everything away. But one could see there was something not right. I also kept explaining the warning signs away, that she was bashful, later that she was just distressed because she was far away from her family, didn't have any friends, had tough childhood, was just hot-blooded, did not feel well in different climate and culture, etc. As the rest of her family, she used to overact the emotions. To ordinary things she always reacted in very unnatural way, in the case of both good and bad emotions. Good emotions felt false and fake, and bad emotions were totally exaggerated. The former was corresponding to their situation because under the influence of b. m. one does not feel positive emotions and must pretend them if he wants to look normal. The latter is very typical when one is under the control of negative entities (negs for short) that expand one’s negative thoughts or emotions. I know these things only now, after long term personal experience with b. m. At that time, I did not understand what it all meant. It just seemed weird, and I could feel in my guts something was not right.
I never saw her mother in person, just one old bad quality photo. She looked strangely disfigured, as if someone splashed her face with acid. When we had Skype talks, she never showed her mother to me. When she talked with her mother online, she never used video. She used it only with her sister.
None of them worked and when I later found out more about them, I guessed that they probably lived from some sort of welfare support due to mental disability. She never told me where they were getting money from.
Actually, theirs was a crazy family of Satanists. Even though, due to some mysterious reason, they got in touch with a devotional tradition, bhakti, with devotees, they could not stay with them. They have been in this mess for generations, fighting with relatives and enemies, cursing and casting spells on each other. But at that time, I did not have a clue about it.

This is common at the place from where she comes. People with such mentality are born there.

Yet from her previous lives she must have had some sukriti, but the b. m. involvement as well. So, she has got both, a sort of freak. It is a too complex situation to figure out causes and intentions.
Before I used to think that the bad things happening to me through others were only my problem, they happen due to my impurities of mind, and when I become purified, the problem would go away. I could not realize that there can be also something seriously wrong with others and this was a great way to learn through hard knocks.

The chance for spiritual life

I began to inspire her and her sister about my Guru Maharaja (G.M.). They claimed to love both him and Prabhupada and started to send him love letters with his and Prabhupada's photoshopped pictures with some text and effects added to make it all very beautiful and romantic. Then G.M., without even seeing them, started to kind of push me that I should get married to her which was also strange.

A sannyasi should not push his disciple to get married. The opposite is the norm.

First my G.M. used to tell me to take sannyas but I felt that was unrealistic. With my conditioning, a strong attachment to women at that time, although decreasing with my progress, I could not imagine living without a woman. I had to marry, he was right about it, but before I met my ex-wife, he always told me to take sannyas. Then he suddenly changed his opinion and told me I should get married, the exact opposite. But even if he warned me against marriage, I had to go through it due to my conditioning.
Nowadays I see that they did some b. m. on him as well. I know it sounds incomprehensible or unacceptable, when in ISKCON someone says that some Maharaja (sannyasi) could be influenced by b. m. According to my current experience and knowledge, after being in contact with devotee exorcists who told me details about their fight with b. m., it is a common thing. There are Maharajas in ISKCON who have all the time with them some demonic entities trying to influence them.
There is a war raging on all levels. On the physical level there is Covid and allied NWO agendas. It continues also on subtle levels. Negs are at war against the good and the spirituality. It is a never-ending conflict, demons versus devas. We can see it in the history of Catholic Church and ISKCON as well.

This may be irritating to some, but it is also my experience. Gradual submission to secularism and the demonic system in general is the main symptom.
Wherever there is something spiritual, the dark ones focus their efforts to discredit it and control it. Vatican is the best-known evidence. Recently I watched again the whole Godfather series. The last part includes real 1978 events (with changed names) concerning the death of Pope John Paul I. and the P2 Masonic lodge, mostly between 1:58 and 2:06 hours.
The rule is: the more powerful one is, the more targeted he becomes.
In Russian ISKCON the b. m. came into fashion already in the 90s, being used in power struggles by disciples of various gurus. One wonders if those gurus ever preach against it.

Almost meeting the guru

While keeping our online long-distance relationship, we were planning to go for the guru's birthday celebration, Vyasapuja, where they, she and her elder sister, could meet him and me for the first time.
It was very difficult for them to decide to go and plan the journey. Especially buying the airline tickets became big drama and almost impossible task, and it kept failing again and again for various reasons. This is what happens when the negs obstruct your actions. They were trying to stop the sisters from going to the temple and meet the guru. At that time, I did not understand what was going on but the whole situation felt abnormal and weird.
After very long time and my intense prayers and assistance it finally happened, and they really came for the Vyasapuja. Everyone who saw them said they were weird and looked like witches, especially her sister. But I could not see it. I was blind with attraction to her and somehow or other explained away everything bad coming from her.
This time they did not meet the guru privately and were mostly hidden in ashram. It was weird, but I thought they were simply too shy. Now after my own experience with possession I know they were actually very sick. The negs make you feel horrible when you are at a place with the strong spiritual atmosphere, in the temple, among the devotees. The same started happening to me later when they sent the black magic directly on me.
After the Vyasapuja she shocked me by telling me that she did not drink anything practically all the time we spent there, three or four days. I managed to get them to come out and eat with me only once. Later I understood from my own experience it was the influence of the negs. One cannot eat, nor drink. Yesterday I also did not eat or drink until the evening. Under attack one simply cannot. The negs prevent one to get any energy to make him weak and destroy him easily.
She was possessed. At that time, I could not understand it due to lack of experience with such things and people. All one can do is to rationalize from one's own experience.

Living with a witch

From the Vyasapuja I took her to my country. Already on the way in the car she told me that she had a very bad headache, which she then had all the time. Heavy migraines. During the following months she had anxieties, depressions and attacks of anger for no apparent reasons, but I rationalized everything away.
When I first brought her to my country, I gave her an engagement ring at one local holy place, kneeled in front of her and all, and in the upcoming year during her freaked out scenes she always threw the ring at me, shouting our relationship was over and that she was going back to her family. At the same time she started making scenes, as she said, out of insecurity that we were not married, and this way she was pushing me to marry her. That was one of her excuses for her bad behavior.
She was cursing me every time when she had her hysterical attacks, she was wishing me very bad things. She even threatened me that she would kill me. Then when she was again normal, usually she did not remember what terrible things she told me. She denied everything and refused to talk about it. I do not know, maybe she did not remember, maybe she lied.
From the Vyasapuja her sister went back to her country but soon she came to stay with us for some time. Then she left and later she came again to travel with us to see the guru and afterwards we went all together to the next Vyasapuja, where our wedding and their initiation happened after exactly one year from bringing her to my country. But until then still many things were about to happen.
My ex-wife and her sister could not learn English, they could not work, could not talk with anyone much, being completely cut off from the world, from everything. Later I had this experience as well. The negs isolate you from your friends, family and all relationships. One becomes dysfunctional, without motivation or inspiration to do anything. One is completely down.
Before their initiation the mother and sister were always on my side when some conflict arose between us. They were telling her to behave and pacifying me not to take the problems with her seriously. I kept contact with them through texting and sometimes complained to them about her.
Maybe not so surprisingly, later it became clear her mother and father were not disciples of Prabhupada. They were just called by spiritual names by one Prabhupada's disciple in their country who knew them and tried to give them some encouragement. He was the only person with whom they had some sort of relationship because basically they could not keep with anyone.
My idea was that she could serve at Govinda's with me, but she could not continue for long. She was going insane, could not stand the service, the devotees and spoke badly about them in front of me. She was refusing to go there although she had a service to do there. But the negs forced her to quit under a crazy circumstance and it was a big drama.
I also developed strong headaches, although not at the beginning when I was spiritually strong. I could often feel there was something influencing her and then it jumped on me. She said her relatives were sending b. m. to them due to their lengthy fight over inheritance, and during attacks she yelled: "I will destroy them to stop harming my family." That was her revengeful nature. She was doing some b. m. as well; although she never told me that, and I had no idea about it back then. She only gave me some indirect hints about her background saying for example how they used to watch their grandmother doing magic and casting spells when they were children. She also mentioned several times there was something terrible about their family I could not absolutely imagine and that it was better for me not to know more.

This should be the absolute red light not to marry her.

She told me about her ex-boyfriend, a Christian. It was her only relationship before me. One of her two sisters had also one unsuccessful relationship attempt before she decided to stay single forever and the other one hadn't even tried. It did not work out, he left her and during attacks she called him a monster, demon and what not. She kept stalking him on Facebook, throwing dirt on him, how bad he was for leaving her. She intensely hated him for that. At the end the same things happened to me.
Later I tried to contact him on Facebook, both directly and through his new girlfriend, as well as several other people connected to my ex in some way, but nobody wanted to talk about that family whatsoever. Everyone always blocked them everywhere on social media, so they were all the time creating new Facebook accounts to stalk people they hated, and later when I had to block her too, she was using various new and fake accounts as well to stalk me and send me messages.
Another strange thing was her constant online chatting with her mother and sisters, being totally absorbed in their endless family conflicts with the relatives, discussing angrily always the same things over and over again, texting and calling them every day from the morning to the evening. It was really hours and hours every day. She woke up with the tablet in hands and went to sleep with the tablet in hands. She was doing it while chanting, while doing service in Govinda’s, even while reading, which was really very rarely. Nobody of them worked so they were always available to speak.
After several months of our living together, when she was making her scenes, I was also already influenced and nervous, and my tolerance limit was crossed. I could not stand such evil energy. In these situations, I usually wanted to leave the apartment and she was trying to stop me from going out of the door by blocking my way, pushing, or pulling me, etc. Then it became physical and when she intensified her attacks to stop me, I pacified her by using force. Mostly I just strongly held her forearms to block her from attacking me further. Once I grabbed her upper arm and she got a bruise there. I did not know she took its picture to use it later against me.
I had one Tulasi plant when my ex came to live with me, and after some time, the Tulasi left her body. Most probably she could not stand the dark energy of the negs around my ex. Then I got another two beautiful Tulasis, while she was staying with me in the apartment, and both immediately began to deteriorate and left their bodies soon. You can imagine the terrible energy.
Mostly we had plenty of prasadam from Govinda’s, but when it was necessary to cook, it was too complicated procedure for her and usually did not end up too well. Her cooking had strong tamasic energy and after eating it I always fell into deep sleep for several hours. I also noticed that there was a sudden increase of the mold in the apartment, and foodstuffs, fruits, vegetables, anything went bad and moldy with various unusual colors of the mold very quickly, even in the fridge. It was very surprising and strange. Now I know these were symptoms of the presence of the dark energy from the strong negs.

The first darshan

They wanted to go for their first darshan with our guru which they missed during Vyasapuja. There was a Kirtan mela at one temple in their country, so we went there by car. To get ready for the journey, to pack their stuff and prepare some prasadam for traveling was incredibly difficult task for them. Nothing went easy. Weird things happened already on the way. A truck crashed into us at one highway exit. We were going very slowly in a traffic jam, and at one point the truck next to us crossed the unbroken line and struck our back door because he did not see us. It was not too bad, but the door could not open. We had to force him to stop at some rest area and call the police. He even got angry and tried to blame us, but it was obvious what happened, so we wrote it down and the insurance company paid it up.

Weird car accidents are one symptom of b. m. In this case the negs wanted to obstruct and avoid the trip to the temple and meeting the guru.

It was crazy what they did there because they were in the temple and felt horrible, irritated by the negs. We stayed in a tent, not in ashram, where they could hide. She was making brutal scenes, attacking me as if I was doing something bad to her, being in intense tension, every second day saying the relationship was over, and showed all kinds of abnormal behavior, but her sister was somehow still on my side and could control herself. She also freaked out sometimes but never against me. I did not understand what was really going on. Even though I had association of G.M., still the bad energy started to be too overwhelming.
G.M. kept postponing the darshan day after day which enraged them. When they finally met him at the sidewalk, with many other devotees around, as G.M. does, walking from one to another, he spoke with them for a while in Spanish. When he finished talking in a relaxed way, he turned around, and went to talk with other devotees.
It was evening and after the darshan we went for a walk. They were incredibly irritated, yelling how he could dare to show his back to them and what kind of monster he is, all sorts of insanely heavy offenses. (During our time together she was committing heavy offenses against G.M. and other devotees.) I could not believe my eyes and ears and tried to explain it to them. There was a weird evil energy around, but I thought that they were just too hot-blooded, didn't understand the Vaisnava culture yet and just needed to do service and become purified.
They intensely pushed me to arrange another darshan which happened after few days and when they spoke to G.M. they were as completely different persons, so nice, sweet, and innocent. For me it felt fake and shocking because I knew how they behaved most of the time, but G.M. understandably could not recognize anything wrong about them and liked them.
They wanted to be seen only in good light. I was literally threatened from her and from the rest of her family not to dare to speak badly about her in front of G.M. and not to damage her reputation in his eyes. According to their cultural background and the common character of the people in their country, the honor and reputation of the family and each its member is sacred, and it stands above anything else. They hold themselves in high esteem and have no problem to even lie or destroy somebody if there is risk of revealing some unpleasant truth damaging their desired reputation. They considered and described themselves proudly to be pure Vaisnavas.

This is a typical avaisnava symptom.

I believed that she would get initiated, we would serve together, get married, then we would have Vedic wedding, she would get purified, become more normal and life with her would be bearable. G.M. wanted it and I surrendered. I saw Krishna's will in it, which was of course there, and at the same time there was some serious heavy karma. As a result, Krishna used the whole situation to let me grow, to make me get out of my country, travel around the world with my G.M. and later with a harinam group, and finally settle down in a new place, where I feel much better, can do my service and am much more useful. 

Symptoms of possession

Her condition was getting worse, and my life was turning into a horror story. She was so-called normal for three days a week, telling me that she did not have the b. m. on her anymore, even though bad vibes were still around her, and her good behavior felt somehow fake. But at least she tried to be good. The rest of week she was crazy. Even in her sleep she was shouting and yelling. I always tried to wake her up literally for several minutes but could not. She was locked in her bad dream by the negs and could not be woken up even by force. When she finally woke up, she said it was the demon that attacks her whole family. Later I also got this experience with the negs often coming during the sleep to torture me.
From the time she literally opened her eyes in the morning, she began to shout at me for no reason. The negs can create a crazy conflict out of nothing. I did not even need to say anything, it was enough that she felt something wrong about how I looked at her, although there was not any bad feeling or intention from my side. Psychiatrist would call it paranoia. Unfortunately, I did not know she was also a witch. She began telling around I was a monster, throwing dirt on me and cursing me, saying often I was a demon, old depressed piece of shit, worse than a karmi, servant of Kali, Satan, and she called me many vulgar words. I thought that she was a crank, like her family members, that she was just a victim. I was doing everything for her, was kind and loving and still she in her paranoid ill mind saw just the opposite.
Later, when I had the strong b. m. already on me too, I could experience myself how terrible it feels when you are in touch with anything spiritual. When I just approached Giriraja, whom I got later during my traveling, to do puja for Him, or when I came to a temple, I felt terrible. Being there takes one's energy instead of giving it. All spiritual activities cause exhaustion and irritation to the person under b. m. During Vaisnava festivals, when the spiritual energy is strong, one feels the worst. On Ekadashi it is terrible too. In the company of devotees, during kirtan, or in the temple in front of the Deities one feels bad and cannot stand being there. She had such states in Govinda's while serving there. During festivals she made incredibly crazy scenes. The negs cannot stand the pure spiritual influence but cannot leave; they are on duty with the person, bound by a contract, so they try to get the person away. For me the things were turning upside down. What used to be sweet nectar and heaven in the spiritual life was becoming unbearable poison and hell. The better a devotee would normally feel in good kirtan or whatever spiritually uplifting service, the worse a person with the b. m. issue feels in the same situation.
During the attacks she was yelling, hating, cursing, calling me names, wanting to destroy me. I could not stand such strong evil and had to leave the apartment, but she did not want to let me. The negs want to raise the conflict and enjoy it. When I managed to leave, I spent nights in trams going around the city when it was cold or walking around. I could not believe what I was going through and figure out what was going on. I was starting to think she was mentally ill. After I came back, she used to cry: "Why did you leave me here?" But what could I do? She had attacks of uncontrolled hysterical cries taking place even for several hours. Nobody could imagine her scenes.
Later, when I had already my own b. m. on myself sent by her, I was not far from a suicide several times. I did not do it only because I had the knowledge and rationality. I did not want to become a ghost after killing myself and I knew that my mother would suffer much. Once she also attempted or rather staged her suicide, drinking a bottle of vodka and when I arrived, she was lying totally drunk and almost unconscious on the bed with a knife in her hand. When I entered the room, she dropped the knife and reeled to the toilet where she spent a few hours on the floor vomiting. 
Things were getting more serious, already affecting me as well. Later I understood that the negs did not want her to be a devotee. Since I showed her the way to the devotee association, G.M, and initiation, they began to attack me as well. Her insults became very strong, and she already did not attack me just verbally but also physically. From her I learned many vulgar words in her language.
When I tried to tell G.M. how she behaved, he stopped me immediately and said women are all like that, it is normal. This happened repeatedly. He did not let me talk about anything negative related to them.

The period before their initiation

I did not really push them into initiation. For some reason it was G.M. who felt he had to give them diksha, because as he said, they were shoving so much love for him in those messages they were sending. I had to always translate it for them, and it was extremely sentimental, exaggerated, and inappropriate to write such things to a sannyasi. I think that at least my ex-wife somehow wanted to escape her bad situation and cursed fate, maybe her sister too, and they hoped that it may be solved by taking up the spiritual life seriously and getting initiated. Unfortunately, instead of the miraculous removal of all their problems after the initiation, the exact opposite happened.
They were like bipolar persons, two in one. They had something good in them, the part which wanted to live in a normal way in Krishna consciousness, and the dark side with the negs ruling over them. These states were swapping all the time. They never directly told me they wanted initiation but as I now understand the development of the situation, they simply tried it out. Recently one of my Godsisters told me she saw my ex-wife’s sister during a YouTube live-streaming of G.M. and that she wrote some very sentimental comment there. So they seem to be still trying at least somehow, although isolated at their place.
The time of their initiation was approaching although G.M. personally saw them only twice, and yet it was him who started pushing on their initiation, without really knowing them and checking them. Normally the aspiring disciple takes the initiative, trying what he can. I guess his intention was to help me to finally have initiated wife and he took me as kind of guarantee they were ok to get initiated, because they were with me. But paradoxically G.M. always defended them against me, and regardless how I tried to suggest to him that there is maybe something wrong with them, he still softly pushed me to marry her and wanted to initiate them as soon as possible. Even before, when our relationship was still going on just online, she was making her freaky scenes and it looked like we could break up two or three times, he always put us back together by his intervention.
At that time already the guru-disciple course required for initiation began. They were doing it online, but they were unable to learn. She did not understand and could not remember literally anything, which seemed so weird, since she was supposedly born in a Vaisnava family, and devotees are usually aware of the basics of the philosophy. Now my personal experience is that when one is blocked by some powerful negs, one cannot concentrate, being unable to learn, to work, to do anything. They cover your consciousness and interfere with your mind and intelligence, and it requires extreme will power to persist and do simple tasks. Moreover, every time she was supposed to study for the initiation course, and even before and during the final test, she made terrible freaked out scenes.
You cannot imagine how much the negs tried to stop her. It was incredible. Yet with great effort and my help she got through the course and passed the final test, together with her sister, who was in their country at that time, but the test was happening online, and I had to give them both clues, which was basically cheating. They would not be able to pass the test on their own.
For the initiation they needed a personal recommendation from their authority, too. They could not get it because they were infamous in their country and everyone around knew them at least as weird troublemakers. Nobody wanted to deal with them, as I found out later. Even that Prabhupada's disciple with whom her mother kept some relationship refused to give the recommendation. They became furious like anything because of that. And then suddenly one week later, voila! A miracle happened: he gave it to them. Now I know that it was the result of their b. m. They must had done something on him to make him change his mind. I asked her how it was possible he changed his mind and she replied totally ridiculously that her mother gave him their house in another country which they hadn't used anymore as his reward for giving them the recommendation. That was one of their hundreds of lies. It was a total nonsense, but somehow, I believed her at that moment.

Our wedding and the sisters' initiation

We planned to have our Vedic wedding during the next Vyasapuja, with my ex and her sister also getting their initiation. The negs tried with all their power to prevent their initiation. They already did not like when I brought the sisters to G.M. and their dislike increased, as seen from how the sisters behaved and how it was getting worse.
The day before the initiation we were sitting and talking in the car at the place of Vyasapuja and she made a terrible scene out of the blue, yelling: "No wedding, no initiation, I want to go home!" They tried very hard to stop her but could not because they are not as powerful as Krishna. Yet they tried to prevent the initiation in every way.
The common standard in ISKCON is to have a legal wedding first at least for a year and if everything goes well, then the more serious Vedic wedding follows. Her birth certificate necessary for the legal wedding was in a faraway city in another country and at that time it was not possible to get it, although she tried. To arrange anything was indescribably complex for them, the negs were blocking them from doing and successfully finishing practically anything, so getting the birth certificate did not work out. Basic tasks kept constantly failing. So many problems were always in the way. I was wondering what it all meant since I never experienced anything like that before.
G.M., instead of telling us: "Wait until you have the birth certificate and marry," said: "Do at least the Vedic wedding." So, we did it and the sisters also received initiation on the same day. G.M. wanted me to marry her and I wanted to please him by fulfilling his desire, despite I knew life with her would be pure hell. After the yajna G.M. told me, that I made him happy by the wedding. It was the most beautiful moment of my life and the only time he told me anything similar. I took his instruction "to stay together no matter what happens as the service to him" to the heart. I believed that also my wife felt it this way, but she proved soon after the wedding that she didn't understand anything.
Afterwards we returned to my country and within less than a week came a crazy brutal scene when she shouted: "You are not my husband anymore, and he is not my guru!" At the Vedic wedding I gave her mangal sutra, a necklace worn by married Indian women for the protection of their husbands, and also red and white conch bangles. During this attack she tore it all down and destroyed it. I was in great shock. She shouted that the wedding was not valid, because I did not mean it seriously. She absolutely did not understand the meaning of the Vedic wedding and initiation yajna, the vows and responsibilities in front of Krishna and the spiritual master.
Fortunately Krishna saved me from a legal marriage because the divorce would be very complicated. I cannot imagine how I could divorce her in this mess. (The lady devotee exorcist who later helped me to remove the first stock of b. m. said it was the work of her second sister who wanted to separate us.)
Later, when a sannyasi senior to G.M. learned that he gave them initiation, because it became a big affair in their country that these witches got initiation in ISKCON, he chastised him for initiating them and told him why he did it when everyone knew they were problematic persons and that he should had known them better.

Waking up to the reality

When I told her they were not normal, that there was something wrong with them… that was the end. Until that time she kept telling me that I was to blame, I was the problem, I was crazy, I needed a therapy while I did nothing at all to her. To me the situation appeared exactly the opposite. She was telling me these things which actually were fitting her, based on her mad behavior. But I never told her, until now. Before that I kept being humble, accepting everything she was doing and never blamed her. It was a terrible psycho. Really surreal. The negs work like that, make you feel you are crazy. The situation cannot be described to someone who did not go through it. As soon as she heard I realized it was her, she started burning bridges. It was too much, because I dared to say the problem was on their side, which they would never admit. They were the only good and normal, and the whole evil world was conspiring against them.

Switching the blame is a favorite tactic of ‘liberals’ and ‘progressivists’ of all sorts.

Because it all was so absurd and totally beyond anything normal, truly paranormal, I began to realize that actually the negs were behind it, so I started looking for something that could help. I often read one passage from Garuda Purana (2.23) to repel them. This text when chanted removes all ghosts from one’s proximity. It helped sometimes, partially. One can feel that something left. But it worked only against the low-level ghosts, not against the higher grade demons. They were already attacking me because I brought the sisters to the devotees and the initiation, and now I even shared her karma through the Vedic wedding and became part of the family. This text did not get me from the general bad condition when the negs were around.
Another thing which helps to repel entities is to take a shower, smear salt over your wet body, keep it there for a few seconds and rinse it off. It needs to be sea salt or the raw unprocessed salt used to feed animals. The ordinary salt used for cooking does not work much. This repels low-level ghosts, but it usually does not help against the strong entities. And in case the low-level ones are bound by the b. m. to bother you, then you can feel they leave for a while and come back. Nonetheless, I use salt every time I take a shower.

The inevitable split

After the sisters' initiation the negs became extremely furious and all the family became totally insane. None of them could control themselves. The sister and mother who were always somehow on my side suddenly turned against me. All of them started openly hating me, being constantly in conflict, arguing, yelling, with all the evil energy turned suddenly against me from all of them. I expected the initiation and Vedic wedding would help, but the exact opposite happened. My life became a nightmare long before, but now it had become a real hell.
Her mother and both sisters showed their real nature and turned into witches and monsters. They went totally crazy, openly hating me, threatening me, and cursing me. They were blaming me for everything. In their paranoid minds I was the possessed and insane one. The negs were completely covering them, changing their understanding of the reality and in their eyes, I really was the demon and the monster. Breaking one's relationships is one of the main things they do, and the relationship with me had to be broken too.
They started to write to G.M. that I was not a devotee but a demon and all kinds of their schizophrenic horrors about me. The second sister was completely mad in their home, not even leaving her room for years, yet she also sent me several crazy hateful messages.
The scenes were becoming physically and mentally unbearable. She did not control herself even slightly and besides insulting me she started assaulting me and literally seriously threatening me she would kill me. Her sister came again so they teamed up against me and were all the time online with their mother talking and yelling like maniacs. I tried to keep distance with them, which was making them furious too, as anything and everything I did or did not do, and my ex-wife also warned me few times that I would see what she was going to do to me. I laughed at that, not knowing that she actually meant she was going to destroy me with the strongest black magic which several exorcists have seen in their career, as they later confirmed to me.
The mother was a total paranoid schizophrenic, the work of the negs. They can create madness by damaging the subtle body and the damage lasts even when they may be gone. When they are still present, exorcism may help.
I made the things even worse because earlier I borrowed big money from them for paying the debt which I made due to falling prey to a money scam organized by certain persons who were second initiated ISKCON devotees, and I trusted them because of that. Well, lesson learned, and it was quite expensive one. For a long time, I did not believe it and normally would not fall for it. But I was veiled by b. m., and I borrowed from a bank a big sum. Shortly after that it came out it was a scam and I did not get any money back, so I borrowed from that family to repay the loan. They offered me the money themselves. After the initiation they suddenly wanted the money back immediately at once and her sister refused to leave the apartment before I returned it. I told them I would sell another apartment I had and pay everything back as soon as possible. In their paranoia they did not believe me and kept making continuous crazy scenes.
I left the apartment to live in Govinda's because I could not stay there with the both of them anymore. Their already constantly totally insane behavior made it impossible. I was literally afraid to turn my back to them since she threatened to kill me, and there was so much hate, insanity, and aggression in them that I felt like they could stab me with a knife at any moment. It was impossible to talk to them normally.
I went to the apartment once because the neighbor complained to the landlord that they were too noisy. I didn't go inside, because I heard behind the door how they were yelling and cursing there, being also online with their mother, and it was like a demonic witch party. A totally surreal experience. It cannot be described. According to what the neighbor said they were going on for hours like that very often and it was obviously the same they were used to do when they were all together at their home in their country.
Once the sister aggressively came to Govinda's and made a crazy shouting scene in front of the restaurant, shouting madly at me and my senior devotee friend. Then she suddenly changed the role, called the police, playing the theater and crying as if I attacked her, calling for help. She gave the police some prepared written document about me saying that I am the violator and cheater who wants to steal their money. The mother was online screaming insanely from the tablet. After all, recently she was doing this all the time. The police saw she was crazy and left. My senior devotee friend was the witness of this incident, he was absolutely shocked, and I was happy that someone else finally saw the insane hysteria and pure evil which I was facing practically the whole year from my ex.
Meanwhile all of them kept sending me hateful messages of the worst caliber, threatening me in the most bizarre ways. At that time, I could not understand completely what they meant by that but soon I started to realize it.
Sometimes, when talking online with me, she switched, became regretful, and invited me to come. She blamed her mother and sisters for everything and wanted me to help her. But that was not possible because she went crazy again within moments. Possessed by evil, they behaved like psychopaths, hating me and making it impossible to have any interactions with them. At the same time her better part felt heartbroken and betrayed that I left her, hating me even more for that. A dead-end street situation.
Selling the other apartment took several months and after I paid them the money back to their bank account, they both immediately left my country. My ex-wife sent me a final hateful message where she told me they left, and I can go back to the apartment. She again said she did not want me to die but tremendously suffer like her and that I would see what that meant.
To my greatest amazement and shock, when I returned to the apartment, it was empty. At that time I did not understand why, but they stole most of my clothes, which they needed for b. m., many of my valuable personal belongings, destroyed my computer and took away my beautiful Deities from Vrindavan which I had worshiped for ten years, with all paraphernalia. That was a terrible blow to me because I loved Them much.
During the service in Govinda's I suddenly began to feel really bad, exhausted, having headaches and even some unusual personal conflicts with the closest devotee friends. I was suddenly alienated from them, couldn't talk to them, and felt very lonely. I was depressed and anxious, I constantly felt like if I had some weight on my chest and I couldn't breathe fully, which are the classic symptoms of possession, and had a hard time to stay there, becoming allergic to the service. I suffered but I knew that I could not leave it, so I lived there and did not want to return to the apartment. The last year at Govinda's I stopped going to harinams to play mridanga, my most beloved service, and to the temple due to exhaustion and frustration from doing anything spiritual. Regular harinam and kirtan in the temple several times a week used to be the purpose of my life before they sent the b. m. on me. It was meant to destroy me in all respects, spiritually, materially, socially, to rob me of the service, success and relationships.
I tried to tell G.M. about it all but he blamed me and did not speak with me for almost one year because he thought that I had blown up the marriage. The fact was there was no future for our marriage.
The sisters, after leaving, wanted to destroy me in every way, materially, spiritually, and socially. She started sending out fabricated untruthful emails to my Godbrothers and to devotees in my country and abroad to defame me, saying that I was not a devotee but an aggressor who tortured her, using that one bruise photo as evidence. They wanted to depict me as aggressive violator, psychopath, cheater and narcissist. My ex even created false Facebook profiles of some girls and even mine. She created screenshots of made-up conversations between these fake accounts to "prove" that I was cheating on her with them. People who knew me understood that it was nonsense and some others did not understand. Nobody can imagine the horror of having something to do with so seriously psychologically affected persons.

Cursed by the guru

By the way, my G.M. cursed me. It is incomprehensible, nobody believes me that a guru can curse his disciple. He got enraged due to an insignificant thing, pointed his finger at me, looked in my eyes, and with all his shakti and anger said: "May you suffer!" I was downed and felt immediately terrible. After a while he said he could not recall it, but I can try to pray to Gaura Nitai, maybe They could lift it. I tried but it did not help, and I still could feel it. Even later he said that whenever he curses someone he has to give also a boon afterwards. So he said that my suffering will be short and then I will become fully Krishna conscious in this lifetime. Still it didn't help me to feel the curse was lifted. After some time he said that when I offend a Vaisnava, I have to beg for forgiveness and pay dandavats in front of him. I did it immediately and felt much better after that, but not completely. I had already b. m. on me and any negative feeling, thought and emotion was multiplied by the negs.
 The cause? I whispered in his room with another devotee, and G.M. warned us not to do it but then we forgot about it. We did not want to disturb him while listening to Prabhupada's lecture and we needed to tell each other something so I naturally whispered again which made G.M. so angry he cursed me. The influence of the negs was obvious there.
This lesson had its sequel when a few years later, still with b. m. on me, I made another swami angry. With the help of the negs there was a misunderstanding and he got very irritated by something I said, and then I remembered the situation with G.M. and immediately paid dandavats and apologized which pacified him. In general, with the negs around me people could feel easily irritated by me.
After one year at Govinda's the summer came and I started to travel again around the continent and felt a bit better, especially when I was again with G.M. who forgave me and finally spoke with me. He was told the truth about the family by the senior sannyasi and could see the failed marriage was not my fault. G.M. then asked me: "Why you didn't tell me they were crazy?" Well, I tried several times, but he somehow could not hear that and always stopped me from telling him anything negative about them.
I was driving him around and spent time with him, as I used to do for about ten years whenever he came. Within his shakti I felt a bit revived, but I was never normal. The times when everything was nectar — service, harinam, kirtan — were gone.

The first help

That summer, while traveling, in one temple I prayed in front of the Deities to help me to get out from that dark situation and become spiritually inspired. At that moment I was able to pray somehow, possibly due to the uplifting influence of G.M. Before that, with the first stock of b. m. on me, I could not pray, come near the altar, do anything as before.
The next day one Godsister, who is a born psychic, came to me. She can see the entities, helps people to ged rid of them professionally and does Jyotish. She said: "You have a problem." I wanted to argue with her I did not have any problem, because in this condition one perceives everything as attack. When someone wants to help, one thinks that he attacks. That was typical for my ex-wife. I said some normal thing without any bad intention or feeling and she understood it completely differently, as my attack, and began to attack me back with all anger and hate. First, I thought that she suffers from paranoia but later I understood that it was something much worse.
That Godsister asked me to sit down and explained the situation to me. I somehow believed her, because I was aware something was really wrong. She said that I had a demon with me, and she would solve it. I asked her how she could do it, but she said: "You cannot know everything." She said that she could enter my aura to drive the neg away. She looked like meditating but then she started to cry deeply. In her words, she never met such evil in her life. She said it was such a strong neg that without removing it I would gradually get sick, go mad and die. I was already sick. I could not cure my bronchitis the whole year, even in summer. I had no energy; headaches were normal and there was irritation by everything spiritual. I was in constant anxiety and depression, alienated from others, lonely, and I could feel it was not completely me anymore, the entity was gradually taking over my thoughts, feelings, and behavior more and more. I can imagine at one point the neg gains complete control and one becomes mad. And gradually the neg will drain one from his life energy and thus ultimately kill him. As I was told by the exorcists, there are even such powerful negs who can kill you instantly by cutting some vital energy channels in your body. Then it seems you died by a sudden death such as heart failure, although it was a murder committed by the person who sent the neg to you by doing b. m.
She removed it and I felt like newborn, so I fell at her feet, paying her dandavat for saving me. But she said: "Probably not, it may return. You have to recite Nrsimha kavacha, pray to Nrsimhadeva. When you feel it is attacking you, recite ugram viram mahavisnum… (the Nrsimha mahamantra)."
Unfortunately, she was right, but she could not continue to help me. Although we were not together anymore, still she could help me remotely, but as she later told me, she doesn't like to work with these serious cases where the b. m. is sent repeatedly and despite being removed again and again, it always returns. Shortly after that I was in depression again since something came. The negs work by veiling one so that one cannot understand they are the culprits but rationalizes in every other way — the reason is the weather, Wi-Fi, cell phone towers, bad food, etc. They expand every negative emotion or feeling. They can influence women more easily, as is my experience with my current wife, because the women function more on emotional level and the negs can easily stimulate a negative emotion in them. A weakened person, like women before and during menstruation, can be targeted more easily.

The spell cast online

Before I left to travel with G.M. around the world, there was Vyasapuja, when one memorable weird event happened. I used to do a live streaming from every Vyasapuja on my YouTube channel. I had a notebook, a camera and a video capturing device, which was sort of box necessary to connect between the camera and the laptop. The sisters saw me doing it during the previous Vyasapuja and knew that I was doing the live streaming again that year, because they could see the live stream on my YouTube channel. She sent me a message during that live streaming, although I used to block her everywhere. She always created new fake accounts to do that.
At that moment I opened the message without knowing it was her, and I felt as if hit by some evil energy brahmastra weapon. At that time I did not understand what happened and I just blocked her again.
From that time I had problems to use the laptop and I did not know why. I thought that I could not use computers anymore due to my sensitivity to the electro smog. When sitting behind the laptop, I felt terribly irritated, vibrating with evil energy. And I could not focus on the display, seeing blurrily. It took a great effort to concentrate my eyes to see something on the display and to focus my mind on what I was doing. I could not stand that feeling and due to this I stopped doing my video service because I suffered much while working with the laptop. And that was their purpose. They wanted me to stop doing my favorite service of recording classes, kirtans and harinams, and publishing them on my YouTube channel. My ex-wife knew how dear to me that service was.
Recently I have bought a new laptop for my current wife, set it up and realized that I do not have these problems with this laptop. I wondered what was wrong with my expensive laptop, which I used for video-editing.
At that time, I got another message from a new fake account on Instagram, with Nrsimhadev’s picture, which they always used on their fake accounts, to protect them from all the evil from others — in their paranoia caused by the negs, they typically believed that they were the only good ones and everyone else was evil. The message read: "Hare Krishna Prabhu, what happened? Somehow you have not posted any new videos on YouTube since long time." I knew it was her and began to connect it — she must have done something to that computer and now she is making a mockery of me. And I was right.
Around that time, I already planned to buy another computer for myself and I promised to give the old one to a Godbrother. To clean it up, I began uninstalling all unnecessary software, again intensely suffering and not wanting to have it around me. When I uninstalled the software and drivers of that video capturing device used for live streaming, to my big surprise, suddenly there was an instant relief and peace. I could use it as normal and see the display without blur. She did a b. m. to that laptop through that live stream! It may sound like some sci-fi but it happened to me. It took three years, and it made me stop my video service.
Later the psychic devotees helping me said that the b. m. folks use some energy yantras to do such things.

My travels

Then I traveled with G.M. around the world as his personal assistant and he was quite bad to me. Not always but he had outbursts due to insignificant things. It was like he was allergic to me, irritated by anything I did or said, chastising me for any insignificant thing. The presence of the negs must had been the reason. And they also expanded every bad feeling I had, making me feel much worse than I normally would.
G.M. was giving me contradictory instructions, changing them daily. I was confused, not understanding what was going on. I just served him and loved him but he was negative and cold to me, getting angry or upset without cause. It was very different from the years when I used to serve him earlier always when he came to my country. I was close to him and we always had nice relationship, he used to treat me well.
The sisters wanted to destroy my relationship with him, as they told many times, that I was not a devotee and that I was in league with G.M. against them. I was close to him and used to be always blissful in his service and they could not stand it. After about a year of travels, during one period G.M. was yelling at me so badly that I had no explanation for it and felt I could not bear it anymore. I asked his previous servants if he behaved like that to any of them and was told no, he was more or less normal to them. I accepted everything as my purification, that I deserved it, which was true in one sense since G.M. took a lot of my bad karma.
As an advanced devotee, he has his shakti and when he gets angry, his anger also has a strong shakti. Many times I went out of his room and broke into crying. It was terrible and I did not understand what was going on. I was accepting that I was a fallen idiot and needed to get a school of hard knocks from my guru. But it was lasting too long and I did not see any improvement.
Prabhupada's disciples describe when he got angry at them, they always had some realization in it, and they understood the reason. For me there was nothing in it, I was just confused and greatly hurt. At one point I thought: "Enough, I do not have strength anymore to undergo this."
At that time I had no idea that negs were behind it. I thought that my Godsister removed them and I was just depressed from my failures, and unhappy crushes. I felt too lonely, useless and lost.
Then I left to travel with the harinam group to keep distance from G.M. even though he tried to fix the relationship, inviting me to travel with him again. But I could not. So, they succeeded to destroy the relationship, at least for some time. It is not really possible to destroy the eternal relationship with the spiritual master, but at that time it felt like it was completely broken. 
When doing harinam with the group I still felt bad, exhausted, depressed, hopeless and anxious all the time since the negs were still with me. I kept posting pictures from my travels on social media or someone else did, and she stalked me, hated me, and envied me, especially when I was with G.M. and the harinam group, traveling everywhere, so they kept sending to me whatever b. m. they could. She has nothing else to do; she is obsessed and wants to destroy me, as confirmed by the psychic persons who help me now. Her hate beyond the grave and revengeful character was already obvious from how she spoke about her ex-boyfriend and relatives in front of me.

Even darker side of my ex-wife

I used Instagram to post stories and videos. While still traveling with G.M., once I noticed an account with a weird name and picture watching my stories. I checked that account and to my speechless amazement I saw it was the account of an BDSM prostitute (dominatrix). And guess who was in the pictures and videos! My ex-wife, who always called her family great pure Vaishnavas including herself, was doing BDSM as a professional! Life could not feel more absurd.
I do not know if they ran out of money or what. She had photos there with her new larger silicone breasts, ankle bells I gave her for our wedding, and videos of her lashing someone etc. She used to talk about her desire to enlarge her breasts while she was still with me which I considered ridiculous since she didn't need that at all. On the Instagram profile she stated that she specialized in trampling (stomping on male genitals). The videos were evidently recorded by some of her sisters in their apartment I knew from our Skype video calls. From all those pictures and videos, I could feel very bad hellish energy. She soon blocked me because she must had realized I could see her watching my Instagram stories with that account.
When I told my G.M. about it in total shock, he refused to believe it, considering it an identity theft. He was still on her side. When I tried to tell him that I have problems with b. m. sent by her, he always belittled it ("Whatever it is…"), not wanting to accept it as real, not believing me at all. I could not understand how G.M. did not see the problem with the b. m. I had. They succeeded by my losing a lot of trust in him. Who else should support and help the disciple in such serious situation if not the spiritual master? And he could not even recognize it. He could see I was depressed though, and he told me he would put me on medications. His explanation was I was depressed due to not having my material desires fulfilled.

End of my travels

When I came to this place in another country and was still alone, I just felt depressed, sad, I felt like I could not breathe fully and had the invisible weight on my chest, having communication blocks with people, though not all the time. The negs try to isolate one from people and to avert one from spiritual life which worked to some extent. I could not listen to philosophy, becoming allergic to it. I only did the harinam and kirtan, even though I suffered during them, feeling exhausted and tired, not feeling the taste as before. But I continued because I knew the taste was there before, and it was the right thing to do.
When I met my current wife here, we got to know each other by texting, and then I still traveled a lot. Before the first lockdown I came here again just for a short visit and wanted to continue traveling with the harinam group. But the lockdown just happened so I had to throw away the ticket and stay here. We got married about half a year later. My wife was cool while I was still down, unmotivated, exhausted. She knew there was something wrong with me and she wanted to help me.
In her culture people still know about ghosts and what they can do. When she had some ghost problem as a child, her family members took her to some mystic who removed it. So, when I told her about my problem with b. m., even though later we used to have crazy situations, she understood: "It is not us, it is them." She had the motivation to save me which lasts, but she also suffers.
Due to spiritual practice I was hanging on. It was maybe 20% better than at the beginning in Govinda's, thanks to the year of daily harinam. But whoever saw me knew there was something wrong with me.
When we got married, she wanted to put photos on Facebook. I did not want to do that, thinking it would be better if my ex-wife didn't see them. On the contrary, I wanted to delete my Facebook. My wife enforced it though. Maybe she was already influenced. And she could not imagine the extent of the b. m. meant to destroy the marriage, which was about to come after my ex saw the wedding pictures.
This way my ex-wife directly got to know about her and got her photos. They are pretty useful for b. m., although my Godsister who helped me at the beginning does not need them. A tantric who helped us later did not need our photos either, just names. Other psychics used the photo to see what was going on with the person, to connect.
Then my wife went suddenly totally crazy, similar way as my ex. She made crazy scenes, problems arising from nothing. It was coming, leaving for few days and then coming again. Later I was told that I had four negs with me all the time keeping me down, and now my ex sent something directly to my wife to destroy our relationship and harm her.

Exorcists

We tried everything. I kept praying to all avataras of Krishna, devas including Rahu and Shani (Saturn), recited Nrsimha kavacha many times a day but it did not help.
Then, about year and few months ago, I got a contact to one devotee, who is into this and helps devotees. I will call him exorcist devotee. When he began and removed the negs, I felt great relief, like when that Godsister helped me first time. Back then I thought the main problem was gone and I became a sort of lulled and veiled to misunderstand the real cause of my continuing problems. I stopped dealing with it, thinking the problem was gone but some weeks later it was back.
Usually devotees have such idea, and earlier I had it too, that if one chants Hare Krishna, Gayatri and other mantras, worships the Deities, does harinam, etc., one cannot have problems with ghosts and b. m. That is a very naive concept, widespread in ISKCON. Of course, when you are on the level of Haridasa Thakura, such things cannot seriously touch you. But mahamantra chanted on the most common lowest level (nama-aparadha) will not be effective in exorcism. When I rarely tried to tell anyone about my b. m. problem, the usual reaction was that they did not believe it. So one is alone with the problem and feels like an idiot. You are telling them about your direct experience, and they tell you it is not possible.
So, when we told some of the local devotees about our problem, they did not believe us either. The reality is that to be influenced by subtle entities is more common than devotees think. They are just generally not aware of it. Of course, the negs and the b. m. are different category than the ordinary ghosts. But even that is unfortunately widely spread problem among the devotees. And yes, ghosts come even to the temple, to kirtan or harinam, or when you chant japa. Some even stay there. Of course, not the evil ones, who cannot stand anything spiritual. It is like with people. Some are favorable, some hate it. Ghosts are everywhere and there are many of them, especially in big, crowded cities, where they can easily attach to people and get some enjoyment from their bodies. Some of them understand they can get sukriti and be uplifted from their miserable condition by associating with devotees in this way. And those who are so sure ghosts cannot influence anyone who chants Hare Krishna, would be shocked to find out the reality, that many of the thoughts and feelings are actually not their own, but induced by a subtle entity.
After the exorcist devotee began to help me and removed the negs for the first time, I felt as new-born. I could breathe normally, feeling alive and perceiving spiritual energy again. Later after the help of a tantric I felt relieved even more. Before I felt constantly bad, but downright irritated, exhausted, in short terribly, in the presence of Deities and anything spiritual, including the kirtan. The flow of ecstasy was mostly clogged and I felt disconnected from Krishna. The exorcist devotee told me that it is not common to continue with the spiritual life under such conditions — most devotees he knew gave up.
But she keeps doing the b. m. and sending always something new. The b. m. folks have test methods to check if the spell is working or not. When he removes it, she knows. She even said herself how her grandmother was checking if some spell still works. She is an embodied hate, envy, and vendetta, and wants to destroy me. I saw her many times in my dreams but in a demonic form as a dakini, astral witch, or a sort of zombie with wounded face and black blood streaming from her empty eyes without pupils and irises. She came to us in dreams and tortured my wife, lashing and biting her or doing something else to her. I do not know how long she can endure the dark energy she works with; it must be destroying her body.
He described them as a traditional Satanist family working together. She told me how the grandmother ordered a murder of her firstborn son, the father of my ex-wife. He says it is a Satanic ritual. He discovered the family including my ex-wife had contracts with some powerful demons to whom she sold herself. They do some rituals for them, give them something they want. The negs who were sent to me were obliged to stay with me by the contract. Even though they are much irritated around devotees, they have to obey and stay. They hate her more than me, he said. When he removed some, others came. There are armies of them.
They attack him as well because he became part of this conflict. At one point he could not cope with it; it was too overwhelming for him, since he was dealing with several difficult cases of b. m. at once. He did some Shiva sadhana to recuperate and he continues with his service. Recently he said he was helping one devotee to break some b. m. contract from his past life and it was a very serious case. I kept apologizing to him for getting him into this mess. I felt great remorse. He said do not worry, it was supposed to happen, it made him stronger. He says that he learned a lot from this case. Until that time he had some easier cases but mine was a different category. He even says now it is fun for him; the ordinary negs are no problem for him.
Then he put me in contact with one devotee from a traditional tantric family. While he was doing it for free as a service to devotees, this one I had to pay. He did several yajnas, rituals for me and my wife, including some kavacha, energy armor protecting against the negs. But he also had problems dealing with the situation. He was already the third person who told me that he never encountered such a strong evil during his career. He even broke the contracts my ex had with the highest-ranking demons and from that time it feels much lighter. Otherwise I could not talk to you about this at all.
The exorcist devotee said that normally someone with such problem contacts him and he solves it at once for good. But with me he works already for a year and several months. He has several other close associates, psychics who he cooperates with to help people with the b. m. problem. The situation became much better. He fought a great war with them. What he says sounds really like some fantasy book. The tantric said pretty much the same about the situation and what he was doing to fight the negs. The war with them cannot be even reproduced.
For about one month it stopped fully but then she obviously did something again and the negs found their way to us, although they are much weaker, and she seems to be more and more devastated. But something keeps coming, several times a month. If they are low-level ghosts, I can deal with them. I preach to them in my mind: "Do not bother me, I want to serve Krishna, do not create bad karma for yourself," and they leave. Sometimes you do not even need to talk to them, and it is enough when you simply realize it is them influencing you and they immediately leave because they cannot work on you when they are uncovered. But they may come back soon.
Sometimes also the stronger ones leave, when one becomes enraged, shouts at them, preaches to them and sends them away in the name of Nrsimhadeva or directly to hell.
I wonder how they can understand any language.

The Vedic explanation is that physical words are the last phase of sound creation; before it exists on more subtle levels as it comes through chakras, and its beginning is in the mind where the intention of the ahankara-influenced jiva manifests. Jiva herself is materially passive, sac cid ananda vigraha.

More symptoms and experiences

It is a wide scale of symptoms and different negs do different things. They can create unusual bodily pains. I had a toothache, but the pain moved to another tooth at the other side of the mouth and kept moving around, and to other parts of the body.

Medical methods cannot discover their cause and the patient is at last labeled as a psychiatric case.

Headaches were the most frequent; irritation, anger, frustration, anxieties, sorrows, exhaustion, sleepiness, stimulated unnaturally powerful heartbeat, disturbed sleep, waking up to the slightest sounds or inability to sleep at all, feeling of heaviness on the chest and inability to breathe deeply.
The negs easily create conflicts using women, taking advantage of their emotional nature and periods of weakness. In this new more energetically suitable apartment, we are stronger so it is not happening much but in the previous apartment any insignificant thing created a crazy conflict. Then it calmed down and afterwards it began again due to something meaningless. When one cannot control it, one becomes completely downed because the anger opens a gate for them, and they finish one off. Some of the worst attacks went on for several days and nights. In the midst of the worst attack, one cannot do anything — puja, Gayatri nor japa. That just happened to me yesterday. I did only two rounds in the evening, fell asleep due to total exhaustion and had to complete it today. I laid down the whole day, totally finished. It must be a heavy attack for me to not take care of the Deities. It happens rarely now.
The negs keep both partners in the conflict so they can feed on the negative emotional energy created. During one attack in the old house my wife injured herself badly due to this. Like with my ex-wife, I wanted to escape the unbearable ongoing situation, but she tried to stop me. I ran downstairs from the 5th floor where we lived. There was no elevator. She ran behind me, jumped at me to stop me and fell from the stairs, the whole floor. She broke her left heel bone, and she was immobile for several weeks. I had to move her around on a wheelchair. She experienced immense pain, and moreover, the negs are expert in boosting any feeling of pain in the body to make you feel it is absolutely unbearable, torturing you to the maximum. It made her even much weaker mentally, so the negs could keep doing whatever they wanted with her. This was our worst time together.
The endless conflicts were coming in waves. Each attack lasted for many hours and the whole wave continued for several days. Then relief for one or two days, and it came again. One cannot get out; one cannot sleep, rest, recover his physical and mental strength, being therefore easily influenced by the negs, stuck in this vicious circle.
Now I understand how people can kill in such situations and then say they do not understand how it happened. A man strangles his wife or she stabs him. They can be normal nice people. But during the attack there is so much evil, anger, beyond control. It is really terrible.
The negs can also influence cooking. They arrange a situation or sequence of events generating negative feelings or they directly raise a conflict during cooking. The emotions of anger contaminate the food and thus after eating it another gate for them opens and makes you more vulnerable to further stronger attack. I am very sensitive to the energy of food.
They can also enter hardware and affect software. Making programs in my computer stop from working, generating mysterious chains of errors and blocking me from finishing what I urgently needed to do was their common practice. By that they try to make one frustrated or angry which makes further attack easy for them. One can get lost in trying to solve an error, because they generate several others in the process. The same they can do with the smartphone. They can freeze an app or create unknown errors. This is also confirmed by other devotees dealing with these paranormal things and by the exorcist devotee.
Someone else put us in contact with a lady devotee who also has these problems and my wife wanted to help her and offered to translate the help from the exorcist devotee, since she does not speak English. And then her negs came to us! We could clearly understand they were from her because they appeared in our dreams and looked very differently than our usual negs, as various animals. The lady also confirmed her negs looked like that. I did not know that they can also have animal forms.

Garuda Purana 2.49.11: The departed souls enter into insentient objects, worms, birds, animals, men, deities, but after release do not enter into any object or any body at all.

The negs create problems through other persons, influencing what they say and do. Like they can make one to unintentionally hit someone while walking, or to knock something down, and create a chain of problems and conflicts arising from it. One gets irritated but may understand it is not himself. My wife due to her previous ghost experience also sees it’s not herself. But they usually work on you persistently, the negative energy slowly builds up, and at one point it becomes too much, or you are weaker for some reason and then they launch full attack. They cover your intelligence and influence your mind to arrange such situations when you do something which makes you weak. It is a good training to learn to depersonalize from emotions and thoughts, and to be constantly conscious and aware of your thoughts and actions. With someone else who does not understand the situation and takes everything personally the relationship would not be possible under the b. m. They would break it within days. I see it as Krishna's arrangement to bring me together with such person who is aware of what is going on and what it is all about and thus can help me to solve the b. m. problem.
I read that article about b. m. from your link, and it reminded me that my wife was several times, maybe 10-times, during attacks almost hit by a car. They mention it too. Covered by the negs, she stepped onto the road without looking which she normally does not do. I was present once. At the last moment, something, maybe the Supersoul, stopped her, and the car passed her closely. Quite a sight. I do not know why the Supersoul did not stop her earlier. Maybe to make her realize she was veiled and under the attack.

It’s said that guardian angels also work this way and in some cases people can see them.

As the exorcist devotee said, they enter your memories, and influence others to tell you things opening whatever emotional wounds you have. This explains how the current wife can tell the same things which already once hurt me in my past spent with my ex-wife, parents etc. They revive old frustrations and pains to knock one psychologically down.

This typically happens during exorcism to deter the people involved from its continuation.
The negs are attached to the subtle body like parasites and can read from it like from a computer hard disc and control it.

They come to bother you during sleep. They can be seen or heard in a half-sleep, when you are just falling asleep, and they shock you and do not allow you to sleep. This may go on the whole night to make you mentally and physically weak and vulnerable to the full attack during the day. Or one has horrible dreams about killing someone, being chased, tortured or killed, or some other nightmares. They also induce sexual dreams to drain your energy.
While my wife sometimes sees the negs in our apartment as fast-moving shadows, I do not see them during the day, I can just feel them. Previously I had the third eye open and could see various things but after encountering this family I lost these abilities. And they do not allow one to do sadhana to regain them. Now when I do hatha yoga and develop some energy and perception, they immediately strike me down. Maybe Krishna does not want me to have these abilities anymore.
The strong negs unfortunately visit persons I am in touch with, to check those people and to bother them. So, I hope they will not come to bother you because this is one thing they do to break up one's friendships. “To isolate and to destroy” could be their motto. They create misunderstandings, make the other person feel bad about you, etc. But now after breaking my ex’s contracts I do not have the strongest negs with me anymore permanently and it is more like intermittent working, so I hope nothing will come to you.
They go especially after those who want to help. It happened to one devotee lady who took care of my wife. She paid for some maha yajna (sacrifice) for Nrsimhadeva in Mayapur on our behalf, and she began to have problems with intense heartbeat and sleep.
One of the symptoms I used to have very often were very strong palpitations, not too fast but strong. Normally one does not feel the heart beating. It happens when one is attacked though, and one cannot sleep. That lady also had it and went to a hospital to undergo surgery. Fortunately, we contacted that exorcist devotee who removed the negs from her. Doctors found out that the problem disappeared, and she avoided the operation.
One friend of mine who put me in touch with the exorcist devotee was inspired to write down something about my case. He asked her to do it for the study purposes. She agreed and I resent her all the audio messages, in which I always described to him what happened, and he told me what he did and what is happening. Unfortunately, the negs probably blocked her as well so she did not do it and does not want to have anything to do with it, being afraid.
The exorcist devotee who helps me says that my ex-wife is running out of resources; she does not have anything to offer to employ the strong negs anymore. She is losing energy and she will destroy herself soon. She does not come to our dreams anymore. Now she can use only some low-class ones. Last time he said he removed four dark bhutas who cannot even understand when spoken to. They will not go away because they do not understand what they are told. They are demented, lower than animals.
There are so many things on the astral plane he told me he deals with that I cannot recall; like the dakini witches, I do not remember all their names he mentioned. Some of this stuff is not alive but some energy junk, like what my ex did to my previous laptop. They can install something like this in one's apartment, or they insert some yantra, a sort of energy device, in one's aura.
It is incredible. I do not wish this to happen to anyone. I do not speak about it to anyone; I just told something to one of our common friends, with some details. Otherwise, it is beyond common understanding, and I do not understand it completely myself.
He told me the negs consider my ex-wife already their property and they negotiated with him that he should not try to save her; he can help me, it is ok, but not her. He also said that she came to him in her astral form and begged him not to protect me, that she must destroy me. That is the nature of that family: "I will destroy them." Regardless of her life, it goes beyond grave. She kept hating her ex-boyfriend who probably did not do much to her. He just left her because who could stay with such a family?
I also had to escape them although I can endure a lot. I wanted to surrender because G.M. told me to marry her. I knew I would suffer; it would be hell, although at that time I did not know the scale of what I was getting into, what kind of family it was. But I surrendered, accepted the guru's order, and married her, despite I could see she was mad. I had a good will and a very long endurance to remain with her. If she did not tell me immediately after the wedding that I was not her husband and G.M. was not her guru anymore, I would stay with her and suffer longer.
I know that everything happening has some purpose, which I may not know yet. But I know why the whole disaster happened to me with my ex-wife: it enabled me to travel, to leave the continent and to come to a new place where I feel like at home. After traveling around the world, I could find the place where I feel much better.

Our Deities

We have beautiful Deities who came from Vrindavan some months ago. Beautiful Radha Damodara, Gaura Nitai, Giriraja, Vrindadevi, and now also Shiva murti to whom I turn often because he is the boss of those negs. Before these Deities came, I had only Giriraja who came to me during my travels.
One local lady has maybe eight shalagrama shilas and she said that one or even three of them have decided to come to me. One of them was Nrsimha shila. She said the shila told her He wanted to go to me. It is said in shastra that where the shalagrama shila is worshiped, no ghosts, demons or evil spirits can create any obstacles nor harm the person or place. I felt very happy that a greater protection would come but the lady suddenly changed her mind. I think the negs were involved in stopping her from giving me the shila, because something like this is not normal. Devotees do not normally offer a Deity to someone and next week they say, “I’m sorry I will not give you anything.”
Here is one interesting event related to the Deities: There was an incredibly bad deathly smell in the staircase of the old house where we lived for one and half year. A bad smell can be a symptom of a ghostly presence. It was a dark house like from a horror movie, with some lights broken and others blinking. There is a crematorium nearby, which explained the subtle traffic. When the Deities came to our apartment, the smell was suddenly gone, and the energy of the whole house changed. When I used to come near the house, I felt the shakti of the Deities on the 5th floor already on the street. Walking upstairs, I felt greater and greater joy. Before I struggled to walk upstairs, I was short of breath and had an unpleasant heavy feeling. Later I got used to the new atmosphere and I do not perceive it as strongly. But several weeks after the Deities’ arrival it was a great difference.
Now in our nice new house near the sea we can see the sunrise every day over the bay. There are hills and mountains, very pleasant scenery, and a lot of sunshine. The negs cannot come to us easily as they did before so it is more difficult for them to control us.
Krishna protects me somehow, even though the problem continues, but I believe that it has had some purpose until now, so it still must have some purpose. It may be teaching me and making me stronger, hard to say. It may have a good purpose.
In the apartment I constantly play the recording of the Garuda Purana section against ghosts from the mp3 player, alternating with Prabhupada's japa. It regularly repels at least the low-level ones.

Further symptoms

The main accompanying symptom during attack was inability to breathe normally, deeply, as if there was a lack of air in the room and some heavy energy was on my stomach and chest, not allowing the ribs and lungs open completely. The first year of my b. m. when I had one neg on me all the time I was in this condition constantly without relief. Something sits on you and blocks the energy flowing normally in the body. Sometimes they come and go, and when the neg leaves, one feels relief and can breathe deeply again.
Later there were more negs around me. The exorcist devotee said that one higher neg can command the lower ones to bother the victim. Some create sadness, some anger, different effects and situations. They can use any weakness, anything to enhance one’s stress and to create the stress from insignificant things. When one is physically or mentally weakened, they can influence one more easily. Lack of sleep is very weakening. When I had the strong ones, they drained me energetically so much that after attacks I sometimes stayed in bed exhausted for the whole day and sometimes even the next one.
Even during kirtans I felt disconnected, with exception of the kirtan party on the street, when I felt better but without ecstasy one usually feels. I felt tired, the opposite of being enlivened, the normal symptom of kirtan.
About two months ago we went to one yoga studio to do kirtan. After it I went out on a terrace through a two-wing glass door. When coming back from dark to light I overlooked that the other wing was closed and hit it with my face. Fortunately, neither the glass nor my nose broke, just some blood and tears came out after the blow. At that moment I knew I was veiled — when coming out I clearly saw that the other wing was closed, just fifteen seconds ago. Until that time the low-level ones could not attack me because I was strong, but through that pain they could attack. The pain spread to the whole body and became unbearable. I could hardly walk home. Then I contacted the exorcist devotee, he removed it, and everything was fine. Many such things happened.

Mahakarunika citta dharani: the first contacts

Since the time you sent me Mahakarunika citta dharani (aka Nilakantha dharani, see English Wikipedia), I recite it when we have some negs around.
One Buddhist lady who wanted to help us with our b. m. issue recited Mahakarunika citta dharani for us already about nine months ago but I did not know its name at that time. It sounded a bit differently since she could not pronounce correct Sanskrit. Now I realized that she actually recited this mantra. It helped us to remove problems a few times, but they returned. Currently I recite it too so we will see if it helps in a long term. So far nothing helped fully because my ex-wife is not giving up.
I have not tried the dharani 21-times yet, but I promise I will. It needs time and the problem is that I cannot spend two hours a day reciting various mantras. I already chant many different mantras for protection every day and I may replace some with this new one, but there is no substantial effect anyway. The negs do not seem to be much bothered by recitation of the mantras. You may feel a bit relieved for a while by chanting a mantra, also when you chant Gayatri or japa, but it does not remove the b. m. as a whole. One may also pray to anyone, but the b. m. continues. I do not know why it is not fully cleaned.

The purity of their reproduction is also a factor at play. There may be more reasons it continues. Aparadhas or guru’s curse seem the most probable ones. Or there may be some higher purpose.

Recent experiences and countermeasures

You asked about the karmic causes from the female side. I have a good relationship with my mother and other female relatives. With women other than my wife I have friendly relationships. It is true the astrologer warned me against my ex-wife, but I could not heed his warnings. Maybe she did some magic to veil me because I blindly ignored all warning signs.

This is quite common and unfortunate that clients cannot follow what the astrologer, or any expert for that matter, says.

I also did sraddha yajna for my ancestors because I thought it could improve the situation. We had problems in our family — the sister of my grandmother hanged herself, the grandmother had some bipolar problem.

One thing which keeps the b. m. bond is thinking about the perpetrator, esp. negatively:

Mostly I do not think about my ex-wife in a negative way. Sometimes it happened during the worst attacks. It was simply too much, and I knew she was behind it all since she was always appearing in my mind. It was painful, daunting feeling, I felt her sadness and hate. That feeling was coming from her. But I did not feel any hate towards her even then, but occasionally I had few moments when I just wished it all to finally stop and thought it would be better if she was dead, because it seemed only then she could leave me alone and stop doing b. m. on me.
I cannot pray for her, at least for now. By her hate she has caused so much suffering in my life that I do not wish to think about her at all. I do not know how I should pray for her. When she begins to appear in my mind, I feel actually alarmed that something is coming again, and it usually does.

One can pray for the person’s ignorance to be removed, the prime cause of samsara; Mahayana Buddhists pray for all beings, including those in hell, in ghost bodies, etc. This is a nice attitude known also from Christianity: “Pray for one another and that will cure you.” (James 5:16). The book by the Vatican exorcist P. Gabriele Amorth ‘An Exorcist tells his story’ mentions it too.

The situation is significantly better thanks to the exorcists who removed the worst negs for good. Her contracts with the big demons were broken by the tantric and now she doesn't have the credit to make a deal with such super powerful ones. She just sends something less strong what is within her capacity. It is still enough to make one’s life miserable though. Nevertheless, I could finish the yoga teacher courses I started attending the last spring. The main plus is that now spiritual activities do not make me feel irritated and are not unbearable anymore. I can do puja without feeling bad, go to the temple, do kirtan, can read and listen to lectures. All this used to totally irritate me; I could not stand it, yet I did not stop doing it. I felt terrible in the temple and during the puja I felt like leaving my body soon, completely exhausted. Now she still does something but much weaker.
Krishna lets it still going on and it makes us stronger, teaches us tolerance and willpower to continue. I think I already showed Krishna my determination to continue but He probably wants to see more.
We get purified this way. During attacks the negs use our traumas, impurities and bad qualities and they actually help us to understand what problems we have inside by exposing and expanding them and confronting us with them. From this point of view the negs actually serve a good cause.
One mystic we contacted recommended a very short Buddhist mantra to my wife. He said that she used to chant this mantra in her previous life, so she has a connection with it. She recites it when she is not much veiled and is also able to help me with it. When I have some pain usually caused by a neg, she touches the spot, chants the mantra and the pain disappears.
Earlier I also contacted one astrologer devotee couple I have known since long and I asked about the b. m. issue. The risk of b. m. and the paranormal problems caused by the unseen world is visible in my horoscope. The recommendation was to do Rahu and Ketu yajna (which we already did) and to place some yantras in our apartment to repel ghosts. We have them in every room but the negs still come.

Some of these methods, especially yantras from precious metals or gems, can cost significant sums of money and are the source of extra income for some astrologers who do not tell their clients about cheaper or free remedies.

She also recommended me to worship Shiva lingam and wear a mala with 7-, 8- and 9-mukhi rudraksha. I have worn it for one year now and actually from that time everything started to improve. It helps against negative planetary influences and one of them is b. m. Only after starting to wear rudraksha we got in touch with the exorcists. The rudraksha helped me also for other things. My self-confidence improved, I always had a low one, and I see positive effects of rudraksha on myself in many ways. I do puja for it every Monday.
We also have Nrsimha pavitrams. We used to wear them but the negs completely ignored it. Now we have them near our beds but they do not seem to help, even against the ordinary ghosts. I keep chanting Nrsimha kavacha daily and we started sponsoring Nrsimhadev yajna in Mayapur and writing a prayer with request for protection to Him every month. Time to time we also keep ordering various yajnas organized by Russian devotees in Vrindavan.
One local Indian devotee recommended us to put a bowl with camphor, salt and other things, in a certain direction in the apartment, which is a traditional ghost protection but it does not help at all.
My wife got initiated on Tuesday. The negs did not like it and went crazy. One strong attack came before and one after. About two days before the initiation she was so influenced by them, that she wanted to write to her guru that she was not qualified and to ask him to cancel the initiation. She is ok now, but it will likely come again.
Please pray for me and give me your blessings to get it fixed.

Mahakarunika helps

After reciting Mahakarunika 21-times, the next day I woke up and got up early in the morning, and since then I can get up early and do japa on one go every day. This was not possible before. Under attacks I had problems to do it; I did it throughout the whole day. Under the strongest attacks I could not finish it at all and had to complete it next day. Now I have a taste to do japa in the morning, together with the daily puja which I somehow managed to do all the time due to my sense of duty, except the strongest attack days.
I feel like someone else, inspired again into nice sadhana. And finally I could feel the energy in kirtan as years before, which was incredible for me. Now I feel inspired to study mridanga, the traditional kirtan style, and to convey what I learned to local devotees.
So Mahakarunika is really great. It has changed my life. It is another step on the way to normality. Wearing rudraksha was the first step; the others were the help of those two devotee exorcists.
It is interesting that I already got in touch with Mahakarunika through that Buddhist lady who chanted it for us earlier. I felt its power then, but I could not figure out what mantra it was, the problems have returned and after that came the tantric’s help. Now I feel very strongly that this is the final solution that something bad left me. If some problems reappear, I will chant it again, weekly, 21-times, no problem. Krishna is teaching me through this to properly respect Buddhists.

The battle continues

I spoke too soon. Another attack came yesterday, again through my wife. Her period is coming so they can easily get to her. She has also problems at the University where she works and studies. Her professor/boss is heavily on her case. Actually long ago, after my ex-wife sent b. m. directly on her, the professor started to treat her in very bad way and everything at the University started to go wrong. What can be done, she must try to finish her PhD study.
Yesterday I was down after the attack but today I woke up early and did japa on one go. So that is a great progress. We will see. I will do Mahakarunika again soon and it would be good if my wife also did it. For me it was a great step forward, although not the final solution. What can be done? As you said, these things go away gradually.
The exorcist devotee still helps us. Recently he said that he set some traps for negs around here and there was some stronger neg watching who would come to check the traps.
Mahakarunika is really powerful. It fixed me up. I am inspired. I recited it again 21-times yesterday and will do it for my wife and read the whole sutra where it is found. It is great that it can heal all kinds of sicknesses. My wife has some unexplainable skin allergy. She or I will recite Mahakarunika over ghee and she will apply it to her skin. I wonder if it will help.

Another very powerful stotra is Lalita sahasra nama (LSN), thousand names of Durga devi. And our friend reported that when he became a target of b. m. he used with success Brahma Gayatri mantra, which he felt as more effective than mahamantra.

I forgot about another thing which I had all the time under the strongest b. m.: a skin problem in the middle of both cheeks, not exactly pimples with pus, but itchy spots, one on each cheek. Nothing helped against it, including the skin doctor. The spots were exactly in the area of the left and right sixth upper teeth. After having the b. m. and the spots for about three years, both upper six teeth broke and fell into pieces. I needed the dentist to make crowns. The spots on the cheeks remained. Only when both exorcists got into dealing with me, it always disappeared when the negs were removed and reappeared only during strong attacks.
I am sorry, I could not reply somehow. I am already afraid to talk about this topic, because after talking about it something always comes.
As you said, it is weird it is happening again. It did not happen until today. It was again a crazy attack. After the first chanting of Mahakarunika 21 times there was an incredible progress, and everything was fine for quite a long time. Then the exorcist devotee contacted me and said one of my Godbrothers also has b. m., he is helping him, and it is a similar case like mine. He got divorced, his ex also started to send b. m. on him through someone and in the meantime another Godsister wanted him but he chose another one, now he has another wife, so the Godsister supposedly sent something too. It is a total psycho.

One wonders what kind people call themselves devotees. One who opposes a devotee is asura by Padma Purana definition: visnu bhaktah smrto daiva asuras tad-viparyayah.

The exorcist devotee said his case is not as heavy as mine but also serious. But his current stage of b. m. is worse than mine. We started to communicate to exchange experiences. I sent him Mahakarunika and LSN and he had another mantra from someone. I felt some interference from the negs at the time we communicated. They come from other affected people when you are in contact with them, and especially when there is an intention to help the other person.
You are maybe immune to it. I hope that nothing will come to you. But I am open to it and vulnerable, because I have had it for many years. I chanted Mahakarunika 21-times already four times but it will not probably help forever and definitely. As I read in some of those articles from you, we should not think that it will solve everything at once. But the progress was huge.
I was in contact with that Godbrother for a week or so and from that time I started to feel worse. And today came a crazy attack. I am not sure if it was from him or it was mine. Before the last major attack, I have felt them around for a week and my condition was getting gradually worse. And my wife is affected even more. I do not have much problems with sleep anymore but she cannot sleep well. Then she is tired and more open to them. In our new apartment they cannot get me so easily. The only thing is that I cannot wake up at 4 am but at 6 am, feeling not entirely well.
My Godbrother said that he has a suspicion that his ex also sells herself as a prostitute, the same as my ex did. He has two kids with her and gives her money for them but she does not officially work, while her kids have expensive clothes and he does not give her that much. So his suspicion is she also does something like that, getting paid for sex. It is quite a natural consequence, because by doing b. m. they have sold their soul to the Devil, the Evil, demons. Selling their body is not a big deal then. What I saw in case of my ex, she was already literally owned by the demons, and there was truly hellish energy about the BDSM stuff she was doing. So such "job" was just corresponding to who her "bosses" were. “The dark side of the Force.” Terrible stuff.
Now I got a message from another devotee astrologer. He analyzed our horoscopes for b. m. and his conclusion is, that both for me and my wife: 1. Our strong b. m. comes from these lives. It will be coming in waves. 2. It can be removed but it will take a long time, five to seven years. 3. We should fast on Tuesdays. I do not know which deity rules over Tuesday.

Tuesday is ruled by Mars, in Jyotish known as Kuja. By his warrior function he corresponds to Karttikeya, son of Shiva and Devi, also known as Kumara or Murugan (in South India). General Hindus worship Hanuman on Tuesdays, another expansion of Shiva.

It does not have to be a full fast, but only fruits. No milk, etc. We will try the astrologer you recommended too. The exorcist devotee also gave me a contact for one devotee astrologer who is the best among many. He can do yajnas and recommend remedies as well. We will see. I will compare few astrologers, and as you said, where they will meet in their conclusions, it will be probably the truth.
Around this time we had also another consultation with different devotee astrologer who basically recommended me to do Rudra abhisek and worship Lord Shiva. Maybe I should really get a Shiva lingam and start doing it.
Yesterday the exorcist devotee contacted me. He was dealing with attacks from my ex. She will not give up until she drops, that is for sure. She is crazy. After one and a half year of my contact with him we developed a friendly relationship. Recently I began to observe that he behaves differently. Now he has many serious cases and some time ago he told me about a Satanic group. They are after him. He thinks that they may want to kill him. They know that he knows about them. They fight with him on a subtle level. One of them who attacks him is supposedly a devotee. The exorcist devotee is now overwhelmed by it, and it is quite obvious. I am afraid they again veiled him although somehow it seems he is not aware of it now. Those Satanists are probably using something very strong against him.
Our relationship with the exorcist devotee was quite damaged by our recent exchange. Negs were involved in it. They want him to stop helping me. But I may still need his help. I will have to contact him when something very strong comes. Otherwise Krishna is showing me we should already deal with the situation ourselves and stop asking him for help. I have to give him a big donation for all those hours. At the beginning, in the worst period, it was almost every second day. Now it has been continuing for one and a half year. I would be dead without him. That I say with absolute certainty. Or maybe my wife would be dead, and I would be in jail. Either way. Or we would be both dead, I would kill her and then myself. It is not fun at all. It is an extremely serious problem, very strong, as confirmed by another astrologer.
I have to admit that I did not read your full text [this transcription of the recording] because whenever I deal with it, and also when I do this recording, I feel unwell afterwards and also during it. Now I also feel veiled, some interference with my energy, mind, and intelligence. Whenever I think, speak or read about these things, it attracts them. It is heavy. I would like to get rid of it finally. When I'm speaking about it now, I have a heavy headache again. They do not want this to be published, to reveal how they work which could help someone. You are very fortunate that you do not feel them, that you are immune.
Here is one recent example of their influence: With my wife we went to a traditional doctor who helps us keep healthy. It is similar to Ayurveda, using herbs. When we went there and talked with the doctor, we felt better. But when I went to pay, I felt the negs around again. I tried all payment apps to pay and all of them gave a different error, unexplainable errors. You know it is them and it makes you frustrated and nervous, and thus vulnerable for the attack. To pay to the doctor my wife had to go to withdraw cash from ATM, which they could not stop.
These things happened to me many times. The negs are experts in creating a stressful situation, and then you have a negative emotion, and they can use it and expand it, possess your subtle body to make you angry, sad, and frustrated.
After that payment we had to split, my wife went away, we could not be together. We were aware of them and wanted to avoid the conflict. Still in the evening there was another crazy attack. They did not leave before they had finished their job. It was always like this. Despite you are aware and try to control, it builds up and at one point they take over.
Earlier I could not understand why these bad things were happening. So much suffering. Now I already see that it was all supposed to happen and why it all had to happen. It is all actually Krishna's mercy and there is a purpose to everything. It all makes sense now. Krishna is teaching me a lot through it, and I can be where I am now only because all those things happened. Maybe I even help my ex-wife somehow by being connected to her by Vedic marriage. Maybe she can get some benefit from my spiritual practice. Unfortunately, through her I also get part of her bad b. m. karma. And so far, she keeps actively harming me. I believe it is not possible for her to go on like this much longer. That great amount of evil she deals with must destroy her sooner or later.
Recently I had another attack. It seems that this time the cause was again my repeated contact with my Godbrother, who is also targeted by b. m. from two persons at the same time. I contacted the exorcist devotee, who checked on my ex-wife and said that she has now developed opiate and methamphetamine addictions and she can think clearly only when on drugs. Wow. BDSM prostitution, drugs... yet nothing which could not be expected. She is destroying herself by her hate and obstinacy. It is stronger than her. One cannot be a devotee and an evil witch at the same time. The negs succeeded to keep the sisters away from real spiritual life. If she does not want to give up the b. m., hate and revenge to me and others, in case of natural death her future is in hell. If she died prematurely, by a violent death, she would turn into an astral demonic witch and could do even more harm. That was told by the tantric.
I do not think she would be so able and powerful. I hope after death this relationship and her mission to make my life miserable ends and she would be sent to hellish worlds to serve those entities who serve her now.

After her natural death she will go "down" (adho gacchanti tamasah) but after a violent death she would remain here as an evil spirit and do more harm.

I hope it is enough as I described it. I do not remember all the details and they are probably not so important. Maybe nobody would even believe those things mentioned by the exorcist devotee and the tantric anyway, all those details about what they did and described, all those various astral beings, armies of entities, hellish worlds and planets where the chief demons live, and situations they both dealt with while helping us. It may sound like stories from a fantasy book. For example, at one time there were some dakinis bothering us, coming to our dreams and they appeared to the exorcist devotee as well. Both me and my wife saw them in our sleep. They looked completely like witches from a cartoon, with the long-crooked noses and the pointed hats and everything. Other times they looked like terrible zombies. They may have a human body with an animal head, appear as huge spiders or insects, various light or dark beings, all sorts of forms. There are wide varieties of living beings in the astral world, as they are in the physical world.
So, after I sent you the message with the situation update, it again became harder to control, especially for my wife. Again, we both got a problem with our sleep, the attack got worse already in the evening, and in the morning some neg strangled her three times in alpha state (between the sleep and the wakeful state). She said he wanted to kill her and that it was so real that it looked like he could maybe even manage to do it. Such things have happened many times.
At that time, I was already chanting in the living room and heard her moaning. I could not wake her up for some time.

Sprinkling with holy water or sea water should help at that situation. The ocean is said in Puranas to be the husband of all holy rivers and spiritual practice on its banks is much more powerful than elsewhere.

I let LSN playing, and it is much better. But as I am writing to you now, I feel headache and a bad energy again. They just do not like that these things should be published.
I do not know if I will manage to edit that article [this text]. It is good that they cannot get to you. It looks that in my case it is not that they would be attracted only when I think about my ex in a negative way (as you write in that article), because I do not really do it. But it is just enough to think of her or talk about her and the negs in any way.
There is another symptom I have not mentioned yet, which is burping. It is different kind of belching than the one caused by digestion. One can recognize the difference. The attached subtle entity causes energy disbalance, the airs in the body are influenced or obstructed by its presence. When the entity leaves, the air accumulated by the blockage leaves the body in the form of burping. The air also goes down, but not so often. Maybe therefore it is said "to release ghosts". :D
Yeah, yawning you mention in your article as a symptom of having ghosts I have too, especially when I’m reading SB or chanting japa and some neg comes and covers me with his tamasic consciousness. But mostly there is the frequent belching, when they are around, often attaching themselves and then leaving. When you do spiritual activities, some low-level negs cannot stand to be attached to you for long, so they keep leaving and coming, and you keep unnaturally burping.
Sometimes you can feel they keep attaching themselves to a particular place in your body. You may develop pain there if they use the spot repeatedly. Or they use spots where you already have some physical or energy problem and make the pain and problem worse. What helps and makes them leave is patting the place with your spoon shaped palm, which is actually a kind of Asian massage.
I did not forget about editing that article [this text] but I did not dare to do it. The b. m. has not finished yet and I think I will be able to do it only when it is fully over. Whenever I start to deal with it, the situation gets worse. I just underwent a several-day attack.
It is interesting that chanting all those mantras first helps but after some time they get less efficient and negs find their ways to us. Generally, now I can feel they leave when I chant Gayatri, but they come back soon.

That suggests a long-lasting weakness, like a curse.

Regarding the photos I sent you, one of them shows the spots on my face I mentioned earlier and one spot on my back near the spine which they seem to mostly enter my body through during attacks. It is my weak energy spot I am aware of. When it starts to feel like soft needles there, I know someone is entering me. Sometimes I do not feel it but then a bruise appears there. They also use other spots, like the small one on the spine.
Some of the other photos are taken during attacks, not the worst ones, of course, when one cannot do anything, what to speak about taking selfies. The photos are about two months old though.
Everything got better, also thanks to mantras, and Krishna still sends some realizations, letting it happen and using it for our training and growth.
We consulted one devotee astrologer recommended by the exorcist devotee. He seems to be the best in analyzing the situation so far and recommended many things. He found out that besides the b. m. from this lifetime both I and my wife have some curses from past lives. She has it from a different reason than me. She either killed a mother or a cow or something like that and someone cursed her. I was already a devotee, but abused my position and some shudras or persons who depended on me cursed me.
Another thing is that my wife is extremely open to ghosts, and I have the susceptibility to being influenced by the unseen and paranormal things, and even the risk of being targeted by b. m. in my horoscope too.
It was confusing that besides the strong b. m. attacks we knew we had a lot of ordinary ghosts around, coming and leaving, and also another sort of more powerful negs (but not as those from the b. m.). Now it makes sense, they are obviously from the curses, bound to bother us but not as strongly as those sent by my ex. About her he said that she now works “over time”, since according to my horoscope the b. m. causing those life dangers was “scheduled” until 2019 and it was supposed to stop already two or three years ago. Now she is using her free will. I do not understand how something can happen if it is not your karma. Probably it is Krishna allowing and keeping it happening to teach us something. She is deranged, obstinate, and doing the b. m. is already her sadhana. That explains the decreasing effects of those protective mantras. She is becoming weaker though, doing it less and less but still goes on.
The astrologer recommended many things. I will mention just a few points what we should do. He gave me Shiva kavacha, recommends to worship Shiva, to wear rudraksha, to do Shiva puja and to pray to him. The same to Panchamukhi Hanuman, who is very powerful protector against b. m. and ghosts. We should offer him bananas every day. It is very strong, when we do it, I feel the energy like anything, and the entities immediately leave at that moment. Still, they come back later. He also recommends me to worship Lord Varaha. We should pray to them all to avert my ex, to make her lose interest in continuing with the b. m. and to protect us from attacks. Hanuman/Shiva command these negs.
He said when the attack is the worst, I should chant or at least listen to Sudarshana sahasra nama. I do not chant Mahakarunika now.
All those mantras worked for some time and brought us always to a next level. When the protection stopped working, I had to look for something else. I see Krishna's intention in this, to purify us and to teach us new things.

Sending the black magic back

My Godbrother who also has b. m. sent me some Muslim prayers against it. They are called ruqyah and are basically passages from Qur'an specifically used to fight the negs and b. m. I listened to one for a while and it did not help to chase them away. I just became more irritated, so I stopped listening. The irritation was actually a sign the negs did not like it. But I stopped it too early.
Then on Rama Navami I got extremely frustrated from yet another attack and Ramacandra’s mercy brought out a kshatriya spirit in me. For the first time I thought I would simply send the b. m. back to my ex. I finally understood she deserved to get all the evil she was doing to us. Until then I did not want to send anything back, because I did not want to come down to her level. I did not want to take revenge and engage myself in the endless war of sending the b. m. back and forth. But Lord Rama somehow inspired me to stop being overly humble, accepting whatever was coming from her. He wanted me to fight. Moreover, I realized, after all those years of suffering, that by just holding the mirror up to her and returning only the very evil generated by her, I do not do anything morally unacceptable.
Among the Muslim prayers I earlier saw one ruqyah to return the b. m. to the sender. On Rama Navami I played it and within seconds the b. m. was gone, and I felt just like when the exorcist devotee and others removed the b. m., like a new-born. Even something more left. Before my vision was somehow clouded and now I could see normally, more sharply, brighter colors, everything. Since then, it was helpful to listen to it regularly as morning and evening sadhana. It repelled everything, they usually left during the first seconds of playing it, or even before when I had only the intention and thought to play it. Then I stopped the sadhana of chanting the other mantras because it was too time consuming, and they didn't work much anymore anyway.
So, for some time I kept sending her back everything she sent, and it probably made things more complicated for her. I can see she is losing power and the attacks are getting weaker and less frequent.
After some weeks those Muslim mantras stopped working fully too, negs could somehow bypass them. I don't know how it works. Maybe she somehow finds out what is the protection and sends something else to break it. But I see Krishna’s intention in it. I needed to move on.
I haven't had a proper attitude to Rama and Hanuman, my relation to them was slightly negative or even offensive. I had also quite reserved feelings towards Muslims. This Muslim mantra helped on Rama Navami so I saw that Ramacandra gave me His mercy. I was also advised to pray to Hanuman. So we are taught to develop our relationship with them. Krishna teaches me to respect everyone, Buddhists, Muslims. Thanks to the b. m. I got the experience that Buddhist and Muslim mantras work powerfully. Muslims are not just suicidal crackpots, as they are portrayed in the Western corporate media to program our minds. So, Krishna purifies and teaches us by the whole situation.
We got in touch with one Buddhist who is also into exorcist business. He used to come here, fumigating the apartment with the sage herb and he advised us to burn dry cow dung. We started doing it several times a day. The negs react to it and don't like it, but one cannot have it in the room burning all the time. He did some ritual, chanted some Kuan-yin mantras and gave us some yantras and talismans. All this always helps for a few days because the negs probably become somehow confused by the new protection and then they bypass it again. But attacks get weaker and weaker, and we get stronger and stronger. I still cannot handle the editing of this article though.
Now I pray, as you said, that she finds something else, stops this and gets the mercy to be uplifted. We will see, but it has a bettering tendency. Ours is a very heavy case.
The devotee astrologer also recommended me to do Surya namaskar in the morning to strengthen my low Sun energy, which I started now, and to offer water to Surya Narayan. I feel nice shakti while doing it. And to worship Varaha who rules over Rahu, who influences the b. m. risk in my chart.
Recently we were again contacted by that lady whom my wife helped to communicate with the exorcist devotee because she does not speak English. As always, some negs came from her to bother us. She wanted to send him money. We also sent him some, even though he did not want it. Then we were not in touch with him for a while, but recently there were few contacts due to that lady and he called us.
Since some time ago we noticed that the situation got reversed and when we get in touch with him, some heavy negs come from him and attack us. He said now he has about six heavy cases like mine. Obviously, there are very powerful entities around him, and they go and check those he communicates with. We are vulnerable so they get on our case with gusto. This one was the worst within last several months. I know it sounds like phantasmagoria, but mine is a real-life experience.
The fight continues, the situation improves, but attacks still come, even strong ones. The exorcist devotee says that when he tries to check on my ex, he cannot see her anymore, cannot find her, it seems she has been removed. So, I do not know if she killed herself, or she is just totally drained. But he says her mother is still active. It makes sense because I do not feel that usual hate coming from my ex. But they did everything together anyway. And if anything happened to her, the mother of course blames me, and their vendetta must continue. Never mind, it keeps improving.
The astrologer recommended solving the curse this way: we should go to the forest on the full moon day, offer mahaprasadam to Chandra, call those who cursed us in those past lives and beg for their forgiveness. Chandra will let them somehow know about it.
Plus, he told us to observe Ekadashi style fast even without salt, for sixteen Mondays for Lord Shiva and to chant Shri Shiva Raksha Stotram. To offer bananas every day to Panchamukhi Hanuman, to chant his Shri Anjaneya kavacham, to pray to Lord Varaha and to chant Shri Varaha kavacham.
We pray to Shiva, Hanuman and Varahadev also regarding the b. m. Plus Sudarshana Sahasra Nama Stotram during the attack. Of course, we also pray to our Deities.
He offered still more remedies, but we do not have capacity for that. He said that we should choose something; we do not have to do everything. Those mantras cannot be chanted daily due to a lack of time. So at least I play them from mp3 player all the time.

Perhaps it would be best to do prashnas and test what would work the best in your case.
 
Updates after another year

I am in Vrindavan already two months and will stay for one more. I came to see G.M. because he was leaving his body.
I am sorry I have not replied since long, but it is really difficult for me, like PTSD. It is not easy to talk about this experience because one is still afraid it will return. It is probably not completely solved, especially when I talk about my ex and her family, something happens, and I feel the bad energy and the negs. So, one subconsciously avoids talking about it, but I understand that you want to know how it has developed. So, I will try to record something.
I am helping our common friend with his b. m. case and when one tries to help someone, the negs from that person go after you. I and my wife both had this experience many times.
What you advised me was all part of my way. Krishna used that for my growth. I had to undergo a process to learn to have respect for other religions and for Hanuman and Shiva in our tradition. Whatever I did, including the mantras you gave me, helped only for some time. It was mind-blowing. But due to it, first I began to respect Buddhism. When I came to devotees, I developed somewhat unhealthy and haughty attitude toward other spiritual traditions. I never had much connection to Rama lila, including Hanuman. To him I even felt kind of disrespect, that he is a monkey, while actually he is Shiva. Paradoxically I came to KC through worshipping Shiva and then I somehow rejected him due to his neglecting in ISKCON and the general preaching which I understood to be minimizing his position. Although Prabhupada says we should respect him, I did not. Due to b. m. many things and realizations happened in my life and this lesson was one of them.
Then I used Muslim mantras from my Godbrother and since they helped I started respecting Islam. But it was the same case: first they worked and then less and less. So, I needed to keep looking for another solution. Then various devotee astrologers kept advising me to do Shiva lingam abhishek and for a long time I was hesitant and somehow against it, because I still thought we should not worship Shiva. But I already had a murti of Shiva and I started to pray to him for protection against the negs and offer him mahaprasad from our Deities. The best astrologer advised Panchamukhi Hanuman who also protects against b. m. So we began to offer him bananas every day and pray to him. When I pray to him, the negs leave immediately.
Long time ago we got the first rudrakshas and now I can see that it was actually the break point from when the problem started to get resolved, slowly, step by step, by the mercy of Krishna, Shiva, and the Devas. Various kinds of help started coming, including yours, but we had only 7, 8, 9 mukhi rudrakshas. At that time I thought the rudrakshas can also harm one and that we should wear only those advised by the astrologer and not others. It is not like that. Everyone can wear all mukhis, which I did not know. Some mukhis specifically protect against b. m. The first ones we had were normal genuine good quality Nepali beads, not big, and not expensive. We both wore 108+1 beads around the neck. But in the very beginning we had to add only one bead at a time, and later we started adding few beads at a time. Their energy was strong, and the body needed to adjust to it. When rudraksha arrived and when we started wearing it, I felt strong headache because the negs did not want that. They try to make you avoid protective things by making you feel worse, so that you put them down and they can attack you more easily. So, I recited Mahakarunika you advised, then those Muslim mantras, then we worshipped Panchamukhi Hanuman and I got respect to Hanuman. Krishna taught me that. It took me several years to accept it, but in the end, I finally realized that I should really worship Shiva lingam. I had been already doing daily puja to our rudrakshas so I got mercy of Lord Shiva and he sent further help.

Rudraksha and parad: personal protection

I learned about an extraordinary metal called parad, which is special solidified mercury. Several shastras mention this metal. Mercury is normally liquid, but the pandits do some secret samskaras, adding some herbs, which make it solid and non-toxic. They say by that “the mercury's mouth is closed”. Otherwise, it absorbs everything. In Ayurveda its healing properties are also used, and it protects against b. m. and ghosts. I can send you some links. I never heard about it before. Some shastra says that one needs to receive a special mercy of Lord Shiva to even learn about this metal. Now I have Shiva lingam made from it and shastras say it is thousand times more effective than worshiping lingam from any other material. When I hold it in my hand, I feel its very strong shakti. Parad Shiva lingam protects from negs the space where it is installed. There is also a small one worn around neck like kavacha. To work properly it should be worn on the neck in the pit between collar bones or higher, but not lower. I ordered it too, and also large Nepali rudrakshas from Haridwar. They did prana pratishtha at Daksha Mahadev Temple for them. The shop is located right in that temple. In general, there is a big risk that one will be cheated on the net, especially with the more expensive ones. This shop is genuine.
The big rudraksha malas are 1-16 mukhi and they are really powerful. So this combination of all these protective articles finally solved the problem.
The negs were blocking me from ordering them for a long time, so I was extremely hesitant. After finally ordering them, the negs started continuous strong attack, which kept going on for almost two weeks, practically until the rudraksha malas, parad gutikas for the neck and parad Shiva lingam arrived. They used all their power, and it was the strongest and longest attack after very long time. They knew the final solution and protection was coming and wanted to do the greatest possible harm before they would be stopped.
Before it arrived, we did not know whether it would help or not. I was hopeless, because such a strong attack had not happened since long and the negs were totally furious. During this strong attack we ordered another Lord Nrsimhadev yajna in Mayapur, praying to Him in completely desperate mood. The yajna happened one day before the delivery of rudraksha and at the time of the yajna the attack stopped. The next day the protective articles arrived and since then nothing like that attack happened again. Lord Nrsimhadev clearly showed us that ultimately it was actually Him who was behind all the protection and help. Still, at the same time we had to go through His other servants and devotees to finally receive His help. Of course, we never stopped praying to Him, but He showed us the help practically comes through His devotees, among whom Lord Shiva is the greatest (vaishnavanam yatha shambhuh).
Since then with the protection, I can feel the negs when they are around, I'm aware when they try to influence me, it can be uncomfortable feeling when they try to interfere with my mind and energy but I know all the time what is going on and the situation is completely under control. The negs are unable to take over and be in control anymore.
I suggested buying of the same items to our common friend and when he ordered them, I was relieved. Until then, his negs kept annoying and blocking me, trying to stop me from advising him. They also tried to stop him from ordering the rudrakshas. It took an awfully long time to break through it.

Problem 95% solved

At home I worship our Deities and offer Their mahaprasadam to the lingam. I also do separate small puja for rudrakshas and the parad Shiva lingam. I put them on a plate, massage the lingam and the rudrakshas with a bit of a scent oil, pour Ganga water on the lingam and springle it on the rudrakshas, offer incense stick, a flower dipped in sandal wood paste and touch the lingam with the malas.
Whenever I said earlier “the b. m. is solved”, it used to come back very soon. Now with the protection, when something comes, as I said, sometimes I am not sure from whom, since we help others to solve their b. m. and the negs always go after those who try to help. And it can be also remaining b. m. from my ex and our curses. But now we know that something came, and it is only like 5% of the previous intensity. I would say the problem is 95% solved. You just know about them, that they try to influence you, but you precisely know what it is, and they cannot take control. You will not become their victim. This is a tremendous progress. I have the protection already for several months. The same I advised our friend and there is no reason why it should not help him too. Every rudraksha, like the usual 5 mukhi, has this ability to some extent but it must be respected, ideally puja should be done to it. And of course, it's better to have as many mukhis as you can afford.

Attacks in Vrindavan and our friend’s case

Here in Vrindavan I met my Godsister who helped me long ago at the beginning and removed the b. m. from me the very first time, after a year I had it. But she told me it would come back, and I should chant Nrsimha kavacha and Nrsimha maha mantra. I kept doing it for several years and it did not help which was unbelievable. I sincerely chanted many Nrsimha kavachas every day, prayed to Nrsimhadeva and Krishna for years but it did not help. Only when I began doing all those things I mentioned, making progress, then it got finally solved through Lord Shiva by the approval of Lord Nrsimhadev.
I took part in the G.M.'s samadhi ceremony here. It was live-streamed on Youtube, and my ex with her sister — although I do not know if my ex actually still lives — but at least her sister and her family probably watched it online. They must had seen me here, and second or third day I felt a strong attack. I don't know for sure it was them, but it seemed they sent something. I do not have the large rudraksha mala here, I didn't take it with me for traveling. I have only small 1-14 mukhi bracelet on my hand, parad on my neck and a small parad lingam, and there was a typical conflict caused by the negs (though much lesser than earlier) between me and that Godsister who also has some negs around because she professionally helps various people with these problems. It was that kind of typical b. m. conflict when you feel anger inside for no reason and then each of you feels to be attacked by everything the other person says, without them really meaning it as attack. Classic negs business.
But it was one-time attack only and it got quickly under control. There was one lady devotee from my ex’s country here who knew everything about what they did and who they were, because she was present in my country when my horrible situation with that family culminated, and she had a first-hand experience with them too. She does not want to talk about that family, but here she told me that the next day after the attack another devotee from their country was contacted out of the blue without even knowing each other by the sister of my ex, who was making big theatrical drama that G.M. left his body and collapsing because of that. So they were very probably behind the attack, because they must had seen me on the live-stream and as always they got envious and furious that I am here in Vrindavan, safe and sound, with the devotees, etc.
Then one another attack came, and it was very different from all the attacks I had experienced before. It was a directly life threatening one. I was riding a moto-riksha and the driver suddenly began to behave like a possessed one, talking and acting as a crazy person and driving very dangerously at extremely high speed, totally inadequate to the situation on the road. I have never had such experience before. I felt the presence of some strong negs, probably from our friend because I keep helping him and his b. m. is meant for his physical liquidation. It was really destructive and very intense.

Our friend mentioned that the attack on him was probably supposed to cause a car accident since almost every time he sat in his car, he saw one or more car accidents (how often one sees accidents in normal life?) and he met strange problems on the road while driving.

I came to Govardhan with this moto-riksha and during the ride we had countless near collisions with other rikshas, cars, motor-bikes, bicycles, people, animals, and whatever was on the road in the typical Indian traffic. I thought it was my last ride and I would die there. It was totally different from any other riksha ride ever. The driver did not care about me telling him anything. He was just laughing and talking like a mad, possessed person. When I got off, several startled cows in some intervals ran against me, so I had to jump aside. I felt the unreasonable anger, typically caused by the negs. Everyone with this experience will recognize it. They can influence animals and people around you.
Whenever I wanted to send a voice message to our friend, I had to re-record it ten times and I felt they were interfering with my mind and intelligence, trying to stop me. They confuse you, you talk nonsense and feel the block, so you delete it, and this way you cannot finish the message and send it. But we broke through it and the sacred articles will hopefully arrive to him. His b. m. is very heavy as he describes.
Here in Vrindavan everything is blissful, all problems feel insignificant and unsubstantial. (When I was here the last time and the time before, burdened by very heavy b. m., I felt psychically terrible, depressed and all. It didn’t get any better here and I didn’t in fact feel the special dhama energy.) Let us see when I return to my place where there are many ordinary ghosts against whom rudraksha and parad do not protect. They also do not protect when one makes offenses, does not follow rules and is unclean. Then ghosts are able to come. I read in some shastra that when a Vaishnava is unclean or commits offenses, some negs are authorized to go after him. So lots of reactions we get are caused or assisted by them. Even if you do not wash yourself after toilet or do not rinse your mouth after taking prasadam, ghosts are mandated to come.
I feel there are still some 5% of the problem remaining. Ghosts can come to us and there are many of them in the place we live due to many people crowded in a small area.
My understanding is that the rest is reserved by Krishna who uses it for our training, purification and education and will remove it when we make enough progress that it will not be needed.
I worship Lord Shiva as the greatest Vaishnava and the only thing I ask him is to protect me from these negs and to help me to become a better Vaishnava. So it is bona fide. Several devotee astrologers advised me to do this long ago. It took me a long time but finally I began to do it and it really helped, which is great.
Shiva plays his part in Krishna lila, is worshiped in Vrindavan, he appears as Hanuman in Rama lila and as Advaita Acharya in Gaura lila. So, to have him on the altar is not a problem. Krishna clearly showed me this. All this is of course His help. Nothing happens without His consent. But this can be understood only by a handful of people.

The second nama aparadha actually warns not to see Shiva and Vishnu as separate (bhinnam pashyet). https://www.mahanidhiswami.com/the-vishnu-shiva-aparadha/

I am glad it is basically resolved for you. The rest probably works as reminder and warning.
Why did not prayers to Krishna and Nrsimhadev work? I think you nailed it — their help works on a large time-space scale, so it may not be immediately apparent.
That is why Shiva and Devi are so popular in India because they help quickly.
It occurred to me that attacks in Vrindavan were unusual because in the dhama abhichara and shapa (curses) are not supposed to work. About the shapa it is the experience of one devotee I know.
I am in contact with our friend who is now abroad, we chat once a week. He mentioned your help, ordered rudrakshas and lingam (hopefully the customs will not confiscate it).
What about the transcript? Will you be able to go through it? It would be nice to finally have it published as I put so much work into it.

Our friend thought that his troubles are most likely caused by one devotee from Russia, his former business partner. In Russia, abhichara is quite common among devotees, as I already said. [edit: But it was someone else behind it.] The one who actually sends it can be a woman, because that person probably does not have this know-how. The question is: is it a one-time thing, or will it come back like in your case? He wrote to me the other day that while listening to LSN he felt one neg attached to his back twitching, not liking it, and after he felt better. LSN probably weakened it.
I advised him the same — to bathe in salt water (or at least pour salt water over oneself), Mahakarunika 21-times and LSN daily. Its phala shruti states that for those who recite it daily, Pratyangira devi will kill the originator of the abhichara against them. It is a heavy weapon! But I do not know if he recites it daily, he only mentioned listening to it once. Even Mahakarunika he probably did not recite 21-times. He did not tell me he had any problem contacting me. Just his trip abroad was delayed.
My immunity is probably just a low sensitivity to these things. I have only had a few paranormal experiences in my life, almost nothing in comparison to other devotees. Last January I recited Mahakarunika 21-times and my bronchitis or something disappeared, and then there was nothing happening for more than a year. Sometimes I recited it and listened to it, but not 21-times. But three weeks ago I had some virus, then a cough, and after that the morning bronchitis reappeared. After two days I recited the short Mahakarunika 21-times and it stopped right from the second day. So it was probably also of a subtle origin. But I have never had any diagnostics etc. so I do not know if its reappearance was related to our friend.

I have to say I still felt weird after recording the update for you. It is not like before, when I tried to talk to you about it, they tried to stop me completely and they usually succeeded. This is not there now when I am talking to you. But when I talk to our friend about these things, or I want to send him some information or audio, they block me like anything, despite I am in Vrindavan. So, his b. m. is very strong.
And it happened several times here in Vrindavan, I want to help him, and I also discussed it with the Godsister who was here, the white witch who helped me the first time long ago. She still makes a living from it. She said she could help him but actually she didn't like these difficult cases where the b. m. is strong and sent repeatedly which is the case here as well, as it was with me. In these difficult cases either the b. m. is sent repeatedly by its perpetrators, or they have a contract with some powerful demon who is in charge of the situation and sends new negs again after an exorcist removes them.
 Back then she helped me by removing the negs only once and then she told me that I had to help myself because she saw that it was not possible to solve it that way. She removes it and it comes back in two or three days. It is endless struggle and then it looks like she does nothing, that her help does not work, and she takes money for negs removal, so she doesn't feel right about that.
 Our friend asked me at one point if she could help, so she examined him remotely and found out that his b. m. was coming from a woman. Maybe the perpetrator paid a witch to do it for him.

Our friend told me: “I think I saw her in my dream. I saw a woman chanting Satanic mantras in a clear voice. The moment I passed around her, the mantras paralyzed me and I was unable to move.” Seeing the b. m. originator in dream is common.

She said it was strong and she would have to continue removing it again and again. Negs go after those people who try to help someone who is under their control. They detect it when someone thinks of the affected persons in that context and wants to help them. So, they were after us at that point, both of us. One bigger attack came when we were together. They create anger, conflict mood, that both feel attacked by each other by what they are saying. It's how they typically work, and you can immediately recognize you are under attack.
Then in another case it seemed the attack was probably mine. I am not sure, but it looked like it was revealed to me through that woman from the country of my ex who was here, as I said. And under the attack I was thinking about my ex's family, so it felt like it was from them. But it could all be related to our friend, hard to say.
I have to say that I feel much better here in Vrindavan compared to my home, where I perceive some negs around us and in our apartment, even though there is parad Shiva lingam. But they cannot affect us as much as before. I know about them, although I do not know if they are ordinary ghosts, or they are there on duty as part of the remaining b. m.
My wife, when she is there alone now, said that she is aware of them, she senses them, and even though they cannot completely possess you, it is still bothersome. I kind of do not want to go back there, because of course I am much better here, but still these rare cases of attacks really happened even here. And when I want to help our friend, I send him messages, I want to record audio for him, they block me completely and very effectively, despite I am in Vrindavan. This used to happen when I wanted to talk to you about it when I had my own strong b. m. and they didn't like the idea of publishing my story, but now it does not happen in relation to you, but it happens when I want to actively help our friend. It feels unpleasant but it is not serious. As the devotee exorcist said, they are immediately here, to interfere with your mind, to cover you and to stop you. This was also the case with the exorcist devotee when he tried to help me. My negs went to him and bothered him.
So, apparently, the heavy cases of b. m. somehow penetrate even into the dhama. Those very powerful demons somehow do not bother about where they operate. But it is true otherwise I do not feel my b. m. here in Vrindavan at all, not even the remaining 5% that was felt in the place I live, so maybe if our friend came here, it would help. But because I connect to him, I think about him, I want to help him, they try to prevent it. It is not aimed primarily at me.
This would mean that the attack after the samadhi ceremony I mentioned was not from my ex or her family but was in connection with our friend whose negs attacked me and blocked me from helping him.
I do not understand what kind of protection or what kind of magic you have, because you tried to help me and him too, but nothing affects you. They probably cannot do it to you for some reason; you do not have it in your karma.

I was baptized in the Catholic Church as a child. That may be one level of protection, as it comes to my mind now. Also, I am not sensitive to paranormal things, I had just a few such experiences. Earlier when I recited some stotras like Balarama panchanga (sahasranama and four other related stotras), I felt itching over my body, mainly in face. This also happened recently when working with this transcript. So, it is probably a symptom of their presence.
Last month I started to chant LSN daily to make sure we can finish this (mostly for you) arduous task.

I paused the recording and I have to say I can feel them a little, a weird energy as I talk about it. But it cannot be compared at all to what was happening before. Still, I am not too eager to deal with that transcript right now, to meditate on it for a long time, to read it. If you want to add some sort of conclusion, how it is more or less resolved now, then I would have to somehow do it, since as you say, you have put so much work into it, and it can help someone when it is published. But it is not something I am excited to do, that is for sure. It is unpleasant. But I will do it.

Nrsimhadev is behind everything

It is all so transcendental. I prayed a lot to Nrsimhadeva for a long time and nothing happened. And then I went through all that learning, training, worshiping all those I needed to respect more, and I went on with those Nrsimha yajnas on our behalf for a donation where our prayers were always offered to Lord Nrsimhadev in Mayapur. When there were the most brutal attacks, before that big rudraksha came, about a day before there was another yajna in Mayapur, I wrote an offering, completely helplessly begging from my heart for Nrsimhadev to help us, because we were completely exhausted after two weeks of such crazy attacks. And lo, at the time of the yajna the attacks stopped and the next day the rudraksha with the parad Shiva lingam arrived. So Nrsimhadev showed me that He can also stop it when He wants to and that it was actually all His mercy. Then, when it came, we perceived very favorable, positive and powerful energy. The parad Shiva lingam and those big rudraksha malas are so powerful. You do not normally buy these at the market, they are expensive. And in a week the parad gutika for the neck came and we also felt a very strong energy but also irritating — some negs were around and felt bothered but could not touch us. So I told our friend that when he will have these protective articles he still might be aware of an attack, but that they would not be able to attack him like they can now. It is suddenly a completely different situation. It is a protection but at the same time it seems Shiva does not completely nullify the b. m. Shiva probably will not remove karma completely, only Krishna can.

I was told that when Shiva acts in the position of guru, he can remove the karma of disciples as the famous verse states (Hari-bhakti-vilasa 1.77):
rajni camatyaja dosah patni-papam sva-bhartari
tatha sisyarjitam papam guruh prapnoti niscitam
“Just as a king accepts the faults of his minister and a husband the sins of his wife, similarly a spiritual master receives the sins of his disciples.”

Lord Shiva is easy to please quickly, he is called Ashutosh, and he reciprocates, helps quickly, solves things, blesses. But we are devotees of Krishna and we only want to serve Krishna. So, when we worship Shiva and pray to Him, it is with this attitude. I see it all as Krishna's arrangement and Krishna's help. Through everything I did, He wanted me to learn something. In fact, He is behind everything, even behind the help of Shiva. We just need to understand who to go through. When I have a toothache, I go to the dentist. I am not going to see the CEO of the hospital to fix my teeth, even if I know him personally. Of course, I can tell him I have a toothache and he will ask the dentist to help me and send me to him. At the same time, I understand who the CEO is and who the dentist is, what is their position, and approach them and deal with them accordingly. Surely ultimately it is all Krishna's grace.
I am glad you are in touch with our friend. I am in touch with him too, but he does not have much time, so it is good that you have regular meetings. He needs someone he can trust and have some company with. That is great, I am glad.
They are definitely trying to block the delivery of large rudrakshas and parad. Let us hope the negs do not get customs officials to stop it. Overall, things are tough. I told him about it already several months ago and it was almost impossible to order it at all. They were really trying to stop it and I felt so much pressure because I wanted to help him order it. They really did not want it and they were trying to stop me from advising him to do it.

Our friend got the parad gutika but the separate delivery of large rudraksha and parad Shiva lingam was cancelled without explanation. He urged the delivery company to resolve it and they finally delivered it after several weeks. Yet he says there is no effect. But at the same time he feels a strong interference from his neighbors who seem to be into b. m. or under its influence. It causes exhaustion and nausea, when one can’t eat much. He feels it only in his current place, not outside. Earlier he felt attacks outside as well. So his rudraksha may work after all but it has its limits. He will soon move to a better place.